A look into Jessica's life

random pictures with the new digital camera

jane and her coin purse @ springtown

jane still modeling her coin purse

jermiah's first attempt of a self portrait at the restaurant

jermiah's 2nd attempt in the car while getting gas

wally the walrus on my dashboard

the rose rosemarie gave me that sits on my dashboard

mellvin and mae mae..yayee a picture with their eyes open. hah

poor mellvin looks petrified as he tries to keep his eyes open for the picture

me and mellvin..dammit i got darker..damn you jermiah

jaclyn and mae mae

mellvin, jaclyn, and mae mae

jaclyn and mellvin

the lil anime kid..awwww soooo cute

cute naman

jaclyn and the kids again

the look on mae mae's face is funny

what the hell?? go john!!

Angel remembered at 12:01:00 PM

finally got some pictures from my graduation from uncle mon

my fans..hah

more fans

the fans eating during the ceremony

dad and jermiah

what is jane doing? ahhah

inang and uncle mon

the fans and the grad..heh

the fans and the grad adjusted

jane, me and jermiah..the 3js

the family

me and jaclyn

me and dad

me and mom

me and the parentals

me and inang

me and nikki

me and mattie

me and uncle mon

me and auntie marie outside the hospital

the honorary grad..hah. go lolo!!

me and lolo

after grubbing at hometown buffet. hahah

Angel remembered at 11:12:00 AM

Thursday, May 27, 2004

.:sigh:. yeah...

saturday cont..
i was really lazy that day. i basically spent the entire day in my pjs. i did start my laundry but thats about it. spent the afternoon watching the ucla regional softball game on espn. gooo bruins!! yeah they won. i love watching the keira goerl pitch. kinda miss my softball days, although it was almost decadeS ago. but its cool. i like i like.i met jac's new boytoy jay. he seems really cool. i still think he talks ghetto. hah. he ended up eating dinner with the fam. hahah.

sunday
i actually got dressed today. i had to. hah. so i spent the first part of the day watching the ucla game on tv again. hell yeah..7-0 shut out. hah. cool beans. so then i went and picked up jane from the train station in oceanside. haha go jane and her toe socks and slippers. heh. after i took jane to her house i went and ran inang errands. chatted. had to work. sucky.

monday
was a chill morning. cleaned out the car. then jermiah and i drove my inang to the hospital. hah. my inang didn't even see jermiah sitting in the driver's seat. go inang!!so we took her to the hospital. then we came home and chilled. then we went to in & out and get lunch. then i headed off to the drs appt. wow surreal. but yeah. then i came home and ate my lunch. haha i lag. after stuffing my face i went to the rec to watch jermiah. we went across the street to watch the little leaguers. we watched the tball game. the kids were so tiny and stuff. but i was getting so grrrrr!! there was one kid that was driving me nuts. this kid dominic had commentary for every little detail. grr. and he was soooo OA (over acting) it was pissing me off. i hate kids like that. mine better not be like that. oh man if they are...its sooooo over. but yeah. came home. chatted. then went to bed.

tuesday
SHITTY!!!!!!
yeah was running late to my advising appt on campus. and wouldn't you fucking know it. i get fucking pulled over and hit with another damn speeding ticket. thats 2 fucking tickets in a span of like a month. and on the same fucking freeway. damn 15 north. grrr.so i got to my appt 15 minutes late. luckily they were able to still fit me in. but that seemed rather pointless. sorry guys it looks like i won't be seeing you guys come fall semester. i have to petition for reinstatement to be able to continue going to csusm. i have to write this petition on why things happened and what i expect to do about it to make me worthy of good ol csusm. i'll keep you posted if it works out. so after that i went to the vista court complex to attempt to pay for the now 2 tickets. to fricken find out that my first ticket isn't even in the system yet. it takes like 4-6 weeks before they are entered into the damn syster. wtf!!!dammit!!! so i was sooo grr that i called jermiah to see if he wanted to meet me cause my day was sooooo shitty even though we had said we wouldn't see eachother today. so he met me at the mall. we walked around for awhile to try to calm down. we walked past a kiosk and the chick noticed my sweatshirt, which was my csusm one, and asked if we went there. so they asked us our majors then our class standings. after i said senior, jermiah said freshman. the chick was all.."oh snagged yourself an older woman" and the guy just had a grin on his face. ahah. go jermiah. hahah. so then we went to eat at red robin. it was cool cause jermiah's coaster for his drink said "miss you thinking of you love you" heheh. so he kept it. cool beans. so then we walked around a bit more. then we left. i came home and took a needed nap. then i went to the rec. we watched some older kids play on one field and tballers on the other field. no annoying kid this time. there were some interesting players on the big kids field though. ones that make you go hmmm. yeah. then came home. chatted then off to bed.

wednesday
jermiah and i went to the movies today. we went to watch shrek 2 at the edwards in mira mesa with the passes nikki gave me for my bday. cool beans. it was a cool movie. but for some reason i could not get comfortable in my seat. my butt hurt so bad. its cool cause of the passes i got we got a drink, a huge nacho that jermiah couldn't finish and gummy bears for like a buck 25. cool deal. so then we chilled then i napped. then i had to take lolo his food to the hospital and some other inang errands. then later i went and got food from beijing and set up my mom's vcr for the cmt awards. channel surfed and watched american idol and other stuff. so fantasia won. i wish diana had won. but oh well. damn you jermiah for making watch that show again. chatted then went to bed cause i have hospital duty in the morning.

thursday
HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY JERMIAH ;)
had to get up hella early and go stay at the hospital with lolo cause dad had work. when i arrived he was sleeping. so i just read the reader then he woke up. a nurse came in and i asked why he was bleeding in his catheter. she gave me possible reasons. but the pain got to be too much for him so i had to call inang and go pick her up early. then she got mad at me cause i was at the hospital instead of auntie marie and not at home waiting for her to call me later to drive her to the hospital. WTF? anyhoo. took inang to the hospital. came home. was being lazy with jermiah. finally around 1pm we went to wings and things and got wings for us and jac. as we were leaving pam called. so she came over and ate with us. then jer left and pam and i chilled for like 4 hours. wow. dang. it was cool though. chatted then went to bed.

friday
got up. jermiah came over. i got ready then we took my car to get the tires rotated..finally. today was the day of exercise for us. hah. we walked from discount tires to the mcdonalds for lunch. and boy was it cold. and jermiah was not prepared for that..he was wearing a tshirt and shorts and it was cold and windy and cars are flying past us. ahha. so we ate at mcdonalds. then we walked back and then we went to target to look for paint for jarwyn and buy a 128mb card for my digital camera. then we got gas. on the way to the station i couldn't open the damn container. but finally i figured out how to get it open. hah. so i put the card in. it said that i could only fit 112 pictures. wth? so i tinker with the settings and get it so that i can have 774 pictures. hah. so while i was getting gas jermiah tried to take my picture using my reflection in the rear view mirror. but alas i figured it out before he could take it. hahah. he took another self portrait. but too close. ahha. so then we came home and watched the end of the ucla game. turns out he knows one of the players. they went to mira mesa together. heh. so then he left. i channel surfed then jac got a big surprise. hah. jay showed up unannounced and called her as he arrived at the house. she was still in her pjs and had no contacts on or anything. ahha. go jay. then i napped. til inang called me. then i did the dishes then headed to the rec. we ended up walking around the park and checked out the epicenter, which wasn't anything big, then over to the library then back around the park. wow we did a lot of walking today. haha. its cool. then i came home. channel surfed and watched the end of the cal softball game. chatting now and blogging. gonna take a nap soon then go to work. thrilling.

til we meet again

Angel remembered at 9:20:00 PM

Saturday, May 22, 2004

my week has generally been cool, except for the shitty thursday morning jermiah and i had. but yeah.

just some random thoughts before i recap..

urrrsher..dude they overkilled his songs. this morning when i was coming home from work they had urrrsher on 3 different radio stations. two were playing "burn" and the other was playing "confessions pt2".

speaking of overkill. i guess cause jer and i spend a lot of time watching videos i've grown tired of twista's overnight celebrity, kanye west's all fall down, d12's my band, and others. even if its the first time its played that day i find myself commenting "oh its that video again" as though i had seen it already today. sheesh.

been listening to 92.5 old skool lately. kinda grew tired of the same songs over and over. and when there is nothing to listen to on the radio i listen to "damita jo" its cool.

still got a lot of stuff to do
* ~~laundry~~
* ~~call vista courts and find out cost of speeding ticket~~ and sign up for traffic school
* ~~pay for summer school class~~
* ~~clean out car~~ and get car washed
* put back angel seat covers and steering wheel cover
* go to petco and buy filter, fish food and replace betta and sucka fish
* buy distilled water to clean out betta tank
* start to plan a picnic or beach gathering for gang (you lose jermiah)
* take graduation pictures
* make and send out thank you cards
* return tables and chairs to valley center

on sunday
* ~~pick up jane from train station~~

on monday
* ~~work~~
* ~~get tires rotated~~
* ~~drs appt @ 145pm~~
* ~~try to get a hold of random r for movies~~

on tuesday
* ~~advising appt @ 1030am~~
* ~~reapply for fall graduation and get registration date~~
* ~~register for fall classes~~ (hopefully)<-- nope!!! denied
* ~~try to get a hold of random r for movies if still can't find her~~

* shrek 2 with 3js ~~and random r (if we find random r)~~

well as far as i know thats all i have to do this week. i'm sure there is a hella lot more and i just can't think of anything.

ok well now for the recap

monday
jermiah and i went to the base to check out camera prices. i found the camera that jac and i saw at costco over there. but it didn't come with the stuff that the costco one came with. so while i was running errands for inang i went to costco and bought my camera. YAYEE!! got me a pentax, which just so happens to be the same brand as my 35 mm. so after my errands i went to the rec and took pictures, while trying to figure out my camera, as jermiah played bball. came home. chatted then went to bed.

tuesday
met up with jane at springtown. had sushi. yummy. i had philadephia rolls and jane and i had tempura shrimp roll. jermiah had his normal staple: teriyaki chicken. hah. jermiah had fun with my camera while we ate. taking pictures of jane as she posed with her coin purse. he even took a self portrait. hah. set up my camera so it meows when you turn it on and off. and the opening and closing picture is of jermiah squinting. so the joke is that he is meowing. hah. we are dorks. went to the rec again. hmm. we went across the street and watched the little leaguers play. the little kids are sooooooo cute. playing tball and such. there a so many of them on the field at the same time. and its cute to watch them try to throw it to eachother. hah. one of the older games we were watching was pretty interesting. we ended up watching in the middle of the first inning. the score by the end of that inning was 6 to 9. thats a pretty good score. chatted then bed.

wednesday
met up with jane at the mall again. we like going to the mall. i want my kswisses. dammit. could not find them anywhere in the mall. ok, well we found them in jarman's but the smallest size they carried was an 8 in womens. i wear a 5 in womens. grrr. so we hauled ass real quick up to carlsbad and tried sheik at the el camino real mall. but to no avail. the guy asked what were so special about them cause he's been getting a lot of ppl asking for that particular color, baby blue. he asked what celebrity was wearing them. hah. no i just know cool shoes. hah. chatted then bed.

thursday
yeah shitty late night and morning. if you didn't get it from the previous entry, jermiah and i had to split up. his parents weren't all that thrilled about him and i dating. i don't blame them. all their reasons were reasons i had giving to jane before hand as to why i shouldn't pursue jermiah. but yeah. so it was a rough morning btwn us as we talked about it and tried to deal with it. sucky. went and hung out with him at the rec after my mom made my life grr. my parents are refinancing the house and they needed copies of their pay stubs. my mom couldn't figure out our copy machine first of all. then after she did that cause she really didn't know where to go to fax them, her and my dad decided that i would scan them and then try to email them to my dad. before i got chosen to scan and such i was getting ready to go to the rec. but that got postponed by almost an hour cause of all the crap i had to do to scan and crop and email. and the email never got to my dad so they ended up just faxing it anyways. why do they make things so complicated? grr!! so i went to the rec.we watched a softball game that was going on during jarwyn's practice. one of the players was jermiah's best friend in high school. he's a tall guy. it was cool though. it was an adult game and they were all just having fun yet being competitive. cool beans. ended up running into romeo from drumming days. i think the last time i saw him was like late 90s. we talked about drumming in high school and stuff. i was at mchs and he was at mmhs. but we shared coach so we tended to chill together. it was nice to see him. then came home. chatted and went to bed.

friday
jer came over then we headed up to escondido to pick up jane. we chilled at jane's til she finished packing and everything for la. so then we headed up to oceanside to take her to the train station. hah its right next to margarita rocks. ahha. so we walked around the station and found the ticket counter. jane bought her tickets then we went to the burger king that was there for lunch. the twins ( jane and jermiah) had chicken strips and i had a whopper with cheese and bacon. yummy!! hah. jane had an admirer. there was a black guy that walked in as she was walking towards our table and he liked what he saw cause he kept staring at jane the whole time he was there. the line was long at first. so he sat on the counter area directly behind jane and tried to talk to her. he didn't know that jermiah was with us cause i had sent him to the car to get jane's belongings. so he just kept trying to talk to her and jane would just turn back around and talk to me. haha. go jane. he even sat by us when he got his food just so he can stare at jane. heheheheheh. so then we walked jane towards the train area. no jermiah that wasn't the train..hahahah the train didn't come for like another 10 minutes after the sound. haha. go jermiah. so then we watched jane get on the train then we left. hey jane, did you see jermiah wave at the train? heh. so then we came home. jermiah learned the 56 route off the 5. so then we came home. channel surfed then he left. then i took a nap then ran errands for mom and inang. dang i was all over mira mesa. then went to the rec and chilled with jermiah during jarwyn's practice. i think we made jarwyn nervous. he kept staring at us watching him. there was a cute lil boy on the court behind jarwyn. he was sooo tiny and yet he had such control of the ball. and when they were playing their scrimmage game he was not intimidated by the other kids sizes. he was playing like it was nothing for him. he tried to be where the ball was and take an active part in the game. it was cool. there was a kid on that same court with a fricken mullet. wtf? and he was a damn ball hog. this kid is still young and he's a ball hog already. damn. its pretty sad. i refer to some of the kids by things they do while they've played with or against jermiah or how they act towards jermiah. i have ppl named "cheater" and "punk ass kid". and oddly enough jermiah knows exactly who i'm talking about. hah. oh well. so then came home. chatted and went to bed. til i had to go to work that is.

saturday
so i had to get up early and take inang to the hospital cause the boys weren't home. so i did that then came home and went back to bed. got up and watched some tv. and now here i am blogging for the longest while. i really need to take a shower and get started on that list of things to do i wrote above. hmmm.

til we meet again

Angel remembered at 1:23:00 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2004

"if something is too good to be true, then most likely it isn't"

this became a harsh reality today. if i had just gone with the logic i had in the first place and kept my mouth shut 2 hearts would not be broken today. but no, i let those people close to me to find the vulnerability in me to decide to follow my heart instead of my mind. but overall, no regrets. i was able to feel loved and be loved, and in turn love someone special. but now, forces have torn 2 hearts apart but luckily not 2 people. at least i haven't lost him entirely.

still a little upset at myself. i knew all the factors going into this and yet i disregarded them. and now these same factors have come and smacked me right in the middle of my heart. but thats the heartaches that life throws at you i suppose. and now to just live each day as best we can, and as much together as we can.

Angel remembered at 8:17:00 PM

Sunday, May 16, 2004

wow its been a real long time since i've blogged. its been a busy and fun week.

sunday
happy mother's day! happy birthday thi and g-knee-per!!

so my mother's day was kinda boring. we went to nena's house for mom's side. food was good. had some shrimp and calamarie. yummy. chilled with katrina. asked her about jane pearl and she did remember her. hah. how odd. jac and i chilled in nena's room watching tv while dad watched tv with tata and mom learned how to play poker with the other ladies. after that we went home. jac and dad went to church and mom and i chilled at home. i took a nap. then we went to the hospital to see lolo. it was us 4, auntie marie, uncle mon, nikki, mattie, james, nancy, auntie tita, uncle rolly, auntie linda, mellvin and jasmine. we were hanging in the lounge watching tv and trying to figure out where to eat. we asked mellvin if he wanted to go to mcdonalds with us..he said "no, i want to go to lower level." haha. he got used to my dad taking him down to the cafeteria. hah. so we decided to go to in & out. so when we left the hospital it was auntie marie, uncle mon and nikki in one car, dad and jac in dad's, and mom and i in my car. so we are driving when jac calls and said to go to nikki's. so we met up at nikki's. before we turned towards nikki's condo we saw uncle mon and auntie marie leave. i managed to back up into a jetta. good job jess. luckily no damage or anything markings of any kind. yayee. so then we went inside. got to see nikki's condo fully furnished. last time i was there she was barely moving in. the rest of them got to see the condo for the first time. so then we all headed to in & out. while we were driving matt called nikki and she told him where we were going and he said he'd meet us there. hah. so the 6 of us ate at in & out. great mother's day dinner. hah. then i came home, chatted with jer and then went to work. thrilling.

monday
finals!!! so i got up early, even after working, and got to school around 830am. met the gang at the dome. studied a bit more. eww. then jer walked me to my psych testing final. i walked in and everyone made a big deal that i was there. megan even screamed claiming i was a ghost. haha. jermiah was laughing hard when i went back outside to wish him good luck on his final. hhaha. i have great friends don't i?!? hah. so then i finished my final in 45 minutes. just after jenn finished hers. so then i left. went to the dome and waited for jermiah to finish his final. got me some frosted flakes. its was ok. jermiah went to eat his burrito. after that we went to the library to chill. we checked out a laptop and tried to get a study room but to no avail on the 4th and 5th floor. sucky. when we were going down back to the 3rd we ran into jane in the elevator. hah. so then we chilled in the corner of the 3rd floor where we chilled before. so jane and i just hung out while jermiah went to his gel final. he was only in there for 30 minutes. dang. after that we headed out. jane went to get her and her dad some subway then jer and i went to bubble tea for some boba. then we met at jane's house and just chilled there for a couple of hours. we watched the smurfs. can't remember the name of the girl smurf. dammit!!so then i came home and took a nap. may have visited jer at the rec but i can't remember right now. chatted then went to bed.

tuesday
finals again. had child development. so i was in the dome getting a scrantron when i ran into ali and trish. thanks for the cards trish. then nimitz came around. we went to the final. again it took like 45 minutes. she still got my last name wrong. hah. hmph. then i met up with jer at the student lounge. we came home. we watched the debut and unfaithful. then he left and i ran errands. rec? still can't remember. i think i did. hmm. oh well. chatted then went to bed.

wednesday
dang had to wake up early cause jer came over at 730am. damn. we chilled for awhile. then headed up to carlsbad to go to el camino real mall. didn't find anything to wear for grad. we ate at mcdonalds. heh. got some earrings though. heh. so then we left. then he left. went to the hospital to pick up inang. but lolo was in testing all day so inang stayed. i ran some of her errands. i went to the rec. jermiah finally got his car back. yayee. heh. actually talked to rosemarie today. hadn't talked to her since thursday of last week. damn thats a long time. chatted then went to bed.

thursday
woke up early again. damn. took jermiah to school for his advising appt. i went to target to check on digital cameras. didn't get one yet. went back and got jermiah then we went to jane's house. chilled there for awhile. jane and i made turkey and ham sammiches for me, jer and jane. then jane made us some mac and cheese. yummy. we were gonna go to the mall to find me something to wear when her car wouldn't start again. so she called in sick to work and we kidnapped her. so then we called rosemarie and left her a message that we kidnapped jane pearl. so then we went to the mall to shop and turn in jane's applications. yayee!! get those jobs jane.. i need shoes. ahha. found me a dress at torrid. yayee. i think jane had too much fun choosing dresses though. haha. so we got my dress then went to payless shoes for my shoes. go jer!! he found my shoe in my size. hah. then rosemarie called and we told her we'd be home soon. so we headed out and met up with rosemarie at jane's house. i took off my nail polish downstairs with jer while jane and rosemarie registered for palomar upstairs. after i was done we went upstairs and chilled with the girls for awhile. then all of us left. rosemarie and jane headed to the campus to take care of some stuff and we headed home. so jer left to get jarwyn and i went to get inang from the hospital. we ran inang's errands and in the middle i got my nails done for grad. yayee!! i like profinish nails. thanks han for telling me about them. so then i finally finished with inang around like 630pm. then we went back to the hospital. and mom was there with lolo. finally we left. got home at around 730pm. chatted then slept.

friday
damn another early morning. but alot to do today. sheesh. so jer and i went to vons and we got some hamburger helper and beef and i made lunch. yummy. also got some cookies. chewy chips ahoy. yummy. so i made lunch. we ate then jac ate the rest of it. hah. then we began cleaning. cleaned up the living room, family room and kitchen. damn. then jer left to get jarwyn. so i continued to clean and do laundry. then took a shower. then jane came over. we cleaned up the spare bedroom as much as we could. then we headed out to visit jer at the rec. jane got to see jer play. everyone on the court was filipino. i kept hearing tagalog. ahha. they are all around the same height too. hah. it was the first time i've seen jer play and he not be the shortest guy. hah. got to see gail finally. all we said was hi. oh well. so then after their game jer, jane and i just hung out watching jarwyn's practice. hah. "why does jarwyn run like a girl?" ahah. he did find his sweet spot though. go jarwyn. jane got to see just how dark jer is getting though. dammit my boyfriend is getting egotized. hah. when we went to leave jer told me that he figured out why he had that weird tan on his leg. it was from his ankle brace. hah. his legs are my color and his ankle is jane's color. haha. so then jane and i went to target to look at cameras. hmm still no digital camera. jane found a camera she likes though. ahha. shopping next week!!! then we went to rite aid to find inang's stuff. ended up seeing one of jane's old friends from like freshman year. hah. then went to albertson's to order the cake for me and quinn. hah. got my bobby pins and claws too. then we went to the hospital to pick up inang and take her home. jane got to meet lolo. hah. he's funny. still only waves at me with his index finger. heh. so we took inang home then went to rodrigos for dinner. haven't had them in a long time. yeah both me and jane got recognized by the guy. my mom's, sis' and my orders were all difficult, then jane's was just so simple. hah. so then we went home and we all ate our dinner. yummy enchiladas. after dinner jane and i went upstairs to tackle my room. she cleaned off my tray by my bed. then she started chatting with chris while i tried organizing the rest. got the center of the room so open and cleared. yayee. we went to bed at midnight.

saturday
graduation..happy bday quinn, vinnie, & jer's dad!
dammit i kept waking up every hour. at one point i looked at the clock and it was 510am. i thought i slept for a long while and when i looked at the clock again it was 517am. wth? so i just got up at 545am without the alarm clock. dammit. so i got up and took a shower. then i woke up sleepyhead jane so she could get ready. hah. so we started to get ready. wtf? i put on my dress and the top was bigger than before. so then i put on the dress i was originally gonna wear to compare the 2. ended up wearing the new dress after all. so we finished getting ready. then jer arrived at 7am. so then we headed to del mar. they walked me to check in. so then they went into the grand stands and i chilled in the grads area. first i went to line up and ended up being the first person for the arts and sciences. yeah so not feeling that. found out that there were programs so i went back to the check in to get one. saw jenn, grace, megan and karen. hung out with them. all the psychos met up together off to the side so that we can all sit together. go psychos. hah. dr fitzpatrick came around and took a psycho picture. hah. saw leezel too. so after we got most of the psychos together we went to line up. psy chi gave us all psi symbol stickers to place on our mortar boards. there was soo much confusion at first of where we should line up. the staff had us moving lines several times. then one of the staff was fricken yelling at us to make a single file line. dude we were doing a pretty good job of it and they kept yelling at us. then they kept yelling at us to back up. which we would do. damn. dr thomas came around and talked to us. that was cool. so then finally 9 oclock hit. ceremony is suppose to start. uh...must have been run by asians..dammit. we didn't start til 930am. so we were in line for 45 minutes. in the fricken sun. sheesh. how rude. so finally we got the damn ceremony started. hah. as soon as i found my seat i looked up to hopefully find the family and jer and jane amidst the chaos. and wouldn't you know it..i look up and immediately see jane and jer. haha. i win. i saw them waving at me. yayee. luckily i found them when i did cause as soon as the other lines started filling in behind my seat ppl, tall ppl, started standing on their chairs so i couldnt see anymore. so then the ceremony started. damn it was hella hot in black in the sun. the families, and the ppl on stage were covered in the shade..the grads were in the fricken sun. sheesh. it was cool when they were introducing the majors in the arts and sciences, when they said psychology our whole section stood up. hah. so FINALLY it came time for our names and stuff. when it came time to say my name i only heard my first and middle name from dr ruiz. the staff on stage was talking to me so i don't know if she said my name correctly or not. so we finally finished the ceremony after 2 hours and 15 minutes. damn. as i walked out i saw uncle mon and nikki in the camera area taking my picture. hah. they followed me all around. then we walked off the track and i went to the mission tower where i told jer and jane to meet me. i found nikki and uncle on the way then we walked over and found mom, dad, sis, inang, matt, jer and jane. my mom said that nana and tata were there but nana threw out her back so they weren't there anymore. so then we began the massive picture taking. heh. so after all the picture taking we went to the hospital to see lolo. hes funny. he was sucking on his pain medicine and he got mad at me when i took it out of his mouth to take a picture with him. hah. we later put my cap and my diploma cover with him and took his picture. hah. so then after awhile we left. jane, jer, dad, me, nikki, matt, uncle mon, and auntie marie went to hometown buffet for lunch. dang jer..you must really like mac and cheese. hah. that kid was funny. there was this lil asian kid that was maddogging us cause we were watching him. he asked us what our problem was..then later called nikki a dork. hahah. so then we came home. soooo fricken tired. but then jer and i headed up to valley center to get the tables and chairs from armida's house. jane stayed and took a power nap. hah. so jer and i went up to valley center. i kept dozing off in the car. poor jer. we finally got to armida's house. they got 2 goats now. dang. so they have 2 goats, 2 dogs, and rabbit. dang thats a lot. heh. so we got the 2 tables and the 17 chairs into the accord. so then we went home. yup the party started on time. hah. it was suppose to start at 4pm and we didn't get home til 430pm. hah. so we got back and unloaded the car. then dad got home and we started to set up the food. jane and jer threw me out of my room so they could wrap my gift. hah. so then when they were done we set up downstairs. some ppl were already there. tin came down from pasadena. hah. cool beans. minus my kswisses =( heh. its ok tin i still <3 u. heh. so then at 615pm jer left to celebrate his dad's bday. but jane stayed with me. ppl started arriving. at around 630pm quinn and i did the prayer. hah short and sweet. then we ate. then more ppl arrived while we ate. we had a good turn out as far as family. mainly my dad's side but thats ok. funny moment of the night..quinn was playing with arthur on her lap. then he suddenly threw up all over her leg. ahha. she yelled out that she got punk'd. then during the cake the cousins started singing "happy barfday to you..bleh..happy barfday to you...bleh, etc" haha. go quinn. then around 8pm jane left for her family party since she finally got directions to the house. haha. thanks jane for hanging out with me. the laker game was on. haha. the party came to a screeching halt. the living room and the spare room was filled with ppl watching the game. it was sooo loud downstairs during the game. marc, matt, quinn, and john were for the suns while everyone else was for the lakers. aha. lakers won. hehe. during the game i was upstairs with corey and cousin opening my gifts as i chatted with jermiah. heh. i kept going downstairs and checking out the score and stuff. heh. so then after the game everyone left. heh. auntie azon and uncle tony washed the dishes on the trays and mom and i put them back in the boxes. went to bed around midnight. wow what a day.

sunday
woke up at 9am. channel surfed for awhile then went back to bed. then got up again at 1pm. chatted online for awhile with jermiah. then i took a shower and jac and i went to costco. think i may have found the camera to buy. hmm. we'll see. then came home and surfed the net about digital cameras. then started blogging about a 7ish. now its 830pm and i'm ending this blog and chatting with jer. wow thats a lot.

til we meet again

Angel remembered at 6:24:00 PM

Saturday, May 08, 2004

been in interesting week..to say the least.

tuesday
so i got to school and found rosemarie hanging with lawrence. he's a cool guy. he totally knows what he wants to do. thats cool. pharmacy...dang. good luck dude!! later jane, rosemarie, jermiah and i went to the library to work on stuff. jane, jer and i checked out laptops. we went to a study room and did our stuff. jane worked on her paper, rosemarie worked on her preface for gel, and jer and i surfed the net while we listened to urrrsher on my laptop. heh. so then we did our thing til almost 1pm. so then we went back downstairs and checked in our laptops. rosemarie went to class and jane went to work. so jer and i were heading towards the parking lot when we got a call from jane. she left her folder on the counter. hah. go jane. heh. so we went back and got her folder then went to the dome to give it to her. then jer and i headed to frys to hopefully get a new fan for my cpu. i think mine died. not cool. so we got to frys. jer had never been there before. so we wondered around trying to find the damn fans and finally gave up. i asked someone and it turned out that we were on the opposite side of the store. oops. hah. so we go to check it out. couldn't figure it out. dammit. so i asked and the guy confused me more than i already was. grr. so we left the fan department. we decided to eat at the cafe' inside. we got 6 inch pepperoni pizzas. jane would have grr-ed. it was sooo oily. she would have been sitting there for awhile drying it up. hah. so that was pretty good. then we walked around the store a bit. then we headed out cause he had to pick up jarwyn. so then i headed to quan's work to find out about my fan. he couldn't remember what kind i had either. but i did find out that my desktop is a pentium 4. hmm. i thought i had a just a pentium. hah. so then i came home and took a nap. then ran some errands. then did the chatting thing.

wednesday
i still feel sick. my damn nose is running and can't breathe dammit. so yeah. went to the library again. jane and i sat in the corner of the library near the library while jermiah went to class. rhona sat with us later and worked on her revisions for her portfolio. rosemarie was on one of the computers doing her revisions too. ryan was on his laptop on the side also working on that portfolio. rosemarie was wearing an interesting shirt..."ditch him"... hah. then andrew came around and chilled to. so at one point it was jane, ryan, rhona, andrew, jermiah and myself in this corner watching the cinco de mayo celebration outside and just chilling. then rosemarie finally finished. after putting her portfolio together her and ryan left to go turn it in. then rosemarie came back and chilled with us for a bit longer. rhona was able to finally finish her revisions. rosemarie went home. then rhona and andrew went to her class to drop off her portfolio then jer and i left. we chilled in the car til it was time for him to pick up jarwyn. so then i came home and ran more errands. then i had to go to inang's and take our laundry cause supposedly our washing machine broke. yeah that was hell. everything was drenched. and everything wanted to retain the fricken water. my backseat was drenched and the basket weighed a fricken ton. damn. i ended up calling up matt and seeing if he was at inang's to carry the basket for me. it was heavy even for him. so i started the laundry and then i left and went home. chatted then went back to inangs to check on the laundry. wasnt done. so i went home. chatted. ran into a tough situation with jermiah. everything worked out..but scary nonetheless. worked on my poster for child dev but fricken found out late that all the glue was either dry or clogged. WTF?? shiet. so that means i gotta get up early tomorrow and buy glue and candy before school so i can finish the project. dammit.

thursday
dammit i got up too damn early. so i got to ralphs across from school at like 845am. damn i heard the craven clock ring all the way over at ralphs. i didn't know it was that loud. so i went in a got my glue sticks and caramel filled kisses. yummy. so i got my stuff and went to school. found nimitz in the dome. sat at the table behind him and worked on my poster. wow it looked busy when all 3 panels are open flat out. jane, adam, and jermiah came into the dome. they watched me put my poster together. shut up jane...i don't care if its chunky. hah. jane was getting loud about nimitz using purple background. hah. so then we headed out. jane went to class and jermiah walked me and nimitz to class. class was kinda boring. for the first half we walked around checking out others posters. there were some cool ones. it was kinda boring cause there weren't a lot of posters to look at so i finished pretty early. but we had to wait for sharon to finish grading everyone's. then we switched. those who were walking around presented theirs and vice versa. so i just sat myself on the table next to my pster and offered the kisses to everyone. hah. so after class we ran into rosemarie. i ended up walking her to the library and talked to her about stuff that happened btwn me and jermiah last night. yeah..grr!! so then went to the dome. ron, jane, jermiah, and nimitz was there. hung out with them. jer and i went to get food for me since he already ate with jane. haha i got my sour cream and onion chips. hah. i also got a turkey sammich. so i ate that. then teresa, diana and adam came around too. gave teresa my grad announcement. after i ate we saw jeannette, sharlyn and carlo go sit by janine and emmitt. so afterwards jer and i went over there to give shar and jeannette their announcements. so we talked to them a bit then left. jermiah and i went to lake dixon. i really like it there. its sooo nice and peaceful. and the temperature was so nice. the trees were rustling a lot. sometimes they got so loud that i couldn't tell if it was trees or a car driving behind me. hah. we hung out there for about an hour or so. it was really nice just being there with him. so then we went back to school. on our way back we stopped by 711 and got a slurpee. yayee..haven't had one of those in so long. then jermiah dropped me off at the dome. i went in and met up with pam. said hi to jane while she worked. so hung out in the dome with them. then rosemarie got out of class and we hung out some more. then around 4 rosemarie and i left. i drove her to her car. then we left. haha interesting phone call rosemarie. only you would lose the registration. hah. its a good thing you finally found it. so then i headed down to the rec and visited jermiah at the rec to watch jermiah play bball. he's actually pretty good. first they played outside then finished the game inside. that one black guy irks me. as far as he was concerned he did no wrong and yet he did. dumbass. he even knocked jermiah to the ground..it looked like it hurt..and he tried to blame jermiah..
\/\/hatever. anyhoo. . so then i went home. i took mom to the airport so she could go to san fran with joy to see kuya nigel. then i came home. couldn't think of what to eat so i went to tgifridays and got buffalo wings and spinach dip. yummy. then went to bed.

friday
well woke up pretty early cause jermiah came over at 715am. he didn't have school so we kicked it. we hung around the house til we talked to jane. decided to meet at the mall at 11am. so jer and i left around 1050am. haha pinoy time. but jane left her house around the same time. hah. so jermiah and i got there first and we went to the pet store to check out the doggies. then we saw jane walk into the mall. so then we went to waldens and she got her cook book. haha. we'll be expecting some food from you soon jane. hah. then we went to aeropostale..ok the running joke btwn me and jermiah is that he's hott. well the truth really came out today. i'm not talking about him being fine..i'm talking about this boy emitting heat. he was holding shirts that i was gonna buy. they were draped over his arm. i knew that his hands are always hot when we hold hands. so my shirts were on his arm and then he handed them to me cause he was gonna get a hat down for jane while we were in aeropostale. the shirts felt like they had just been ironed. wth? damn. after we paid we headed out. we ran into teresa. she was there for her job interview at macy's. good luck. so then the 3js went shopping in anchor blue. jane got sunglasses. yayee!! then we went to eat. jermiah and jane went to teriyaki and i got hot dog on a stick. yummy. hah. so then afterwards we headed out and ran into teresa again. she got the job. yayee!! congrats teresa!! then teresa went with us around the mall as we got jane applications. so then around 1pm teresa headed home and jermiah and i headed home too. jane stuck around to get more apps. so then we got home and took a nap. after being asleep for about 45 minutes my mom called to tell me she was flying home early. so then i noticed that jermiah was lying on his side with his back to me. so after my call i leaned towards him. damn his neck was emitting so much heat. dang boy. haha. so then he left around 230pm to get jarwyn. i went back to sleep. haha. then i got up and had to run inang errands. damn. inbtwn the errands i went to visit jermiah at the rec again. this game was a lot better. we kinda chilled on the bench while coach paje and justine practiced. although dodo didn't introduce me to them we knew who eachother was. hah. dork. so then i left around quarter to 6pm. then went to costco and finished inang's errands. damn. finally got home around 730pm got dressed really quick then headed to eric sandoval's graduation party at hilltop. congrat eric. it was cool. got to see a bunch of ppl i haven't seen in a long time. while i was in line for food uncle al, the dj, put on otso otso. then him and uncle jessie trapse started to do the otso otso. hah. everyone was laughing. then the spaghetti song came on...jay had the movie camera out then and auntie chit was dancing and he told her to stick out her boobs. whoa that was something i didn't expect. hah. it was cool. saw the alontes. all that was missing was angelo though. but they are all soo big now and they all look alike. heh. so then around 930pm jac and i left. dropped off jac at home then headed to the airport to pick up mom. then came home and talked to jer on the phone. then went to bed.

saturday
dammit inang. she calls me at 7am to see if i was already awake. i told her that matt was gonna take her to her friends house at 8am. she said no that matt was gonna take lolo's clothes to the hospital. i don't even think matt was even conscious. phucking a. so i got out of bed and got dressed and went and got her. took her to pq to her friend's house. then took her home at 830am. came home and went straight to bed. dammit. then jane called around 930-10am. talked to her for awhile. then got up and worked on grad invitations some more. damn. then dad yelled up that i had flowers delivered. quan had a dozen white roses delivered to me. wth? hmmm. yeah..then around 130pm i finally got ready for grace ochoa's house blessing which started at 1pm. oops. so then we left at 2pm and headed to auntie tita's house first to drop off kasaba for them. then we went to grace's. it was cool. its a nice house. the food was good too. hah. ended up talking to greg's oldest..dammit i can't think of her name. but she got accepted to csusm. so she'll be going to school with us next fall. cool. then we left. went to mervyns in southside to find mothers day gift for nana. found that then went to payless. didn't find any shoes. so then we left. we came home. chatted with jermiah and quan. been blogging since i got home too. damn a lot has happened. hah. so now, off too bed soon.

til we meet again

Angel remembered at 9:32:00 PM

Monday, May 03, 2004

cool beans i only have to update about friday and the weekend...thought i was farther behind. heh.

friday
so i got to school. as i was approaching the stairs i saw andrew and rhona getting out of their car. so i waited for them. so then the 3 of us went upstairs towards the dome. as we were approaching the dome jermiah walked outside. i asked him what was he doing outside and he said on his way to class. so then the 3 of them went to their 9am classes. so i went into the dome. chilled with...shit who did i chill with..dammit i forgot. hmm. sorry. so then within 15 minutes jermiah came back. wth? it turned out that his cs teacher told him to leave cause he passed the ccr already. cool beans. so then we headed to the library to find rosemarie so i could dl the pictures from her camera. i brought my card reader/writer so i can get them from her. so we got to the library and checked out a laptop then went to the computer she was at and i started to dl the pictures. dang that girl has a lot of pictures on there. again told her how to dl the pictures when she gets home. heh. so then we walked her to her class. poor baby wasn't having a good day. that ended up being the last i heard from her til later that night. hmm. so then jer and i went to check out the student lounge. we went in and chilled watching comedy central til his noon class. we went to the dome and got randy then we walked to the their class in the library. they went to class and i chilled with nimitz at the computers. then they got out and we walked back to the student lounge. after awhile we decided to go to lake dixon. that was cool. it was nice out there. we spent time out there. then around 215pm we left on our separate ways. he went home to get his bro and i went to jane's. so i chilled with jane a bit then we headed to the train station in solana beach. hah interesting convo in the car. so then after she got her ticket she went on her way. have fun!! hah. so then i called quan cause we were suppose to meet up but he didn't answer his phone. so i called up jer and he was still at the rec but just chillin while jarwyn practiced. so i went and hung out there for awhile. we mainly just kinda napped in the car. hah. go us. then i left. went home and took a nice 3 hour nap. then i started to chat with jer and rose. then quan called and he came over. brought me some tacos from jib, i hadn't eaten all day. so when he came over we talked. i broke the news to him about me and jermiah being a couple now. wow. so did not expect the reaction i got. that floored me. so then he left and i continued to chat with jermiah. called up rose and talked to her real quick. then went to bed at fricken 1030pm. dang

saturday
so i got up. chatted and stuff. started cleaning my room. i can see more of my floor now. haha. also did some laundry. damn i didnt realize i had so much clothes. so then around 4pm i took inang to the hospital real quick. came back and continued cleaning and chatting. then around 8pm i took a shower and went to the hospital to see lolo. when i got there everyone was outside the room cause they were changing lolo and stuff. it was nikki, quinn, dad, john, auntie azon and uncle tony. and we were laughing and talking. we were bagging on inang too. haha john. wait til you get your license. so that was fun. didn't stay long cause lolo was falling asleep. dad got stuck there again. so i came home. made jermiah talk to me on the phone. then we went to bed at 11pm. wow..early 2 nights in a row. sheesh.

sunday
kept waking up every hour from like 7am-10am. wth? finally just got up. cleaned a bit more and did more laundry. started working on the list for grad announcements. then started getting ready around 330pm. jermiah arrived at 4pm then we headed to escondido for the kundirana concert for rosemarie and jennifer. so we got there. hah. jermiah can't park..and why did you look at the driver side if you hit the passenger side? dorko. so we go inside. as we walk in we get hit with the programs. to buy them that is. so i say if there are pictures of rose and jenn we'll buy one. as soon as i open it lo and behold there are their pictures. hah. thanks jer for paying. about 10 minutes later they actually let us into the auditorium. so we found our seats. wow we were close. we were in F right in front of the stage. and in A sat rosemarie and jennifer and the rest of the miss kundiranas and in B was rosemarie's parents and her ninay. how cute. so the show was suppose to start at "5 SHARP" thats what the tickets, program and newspaper ad said. yeah right. a filipino thing start on time. hah. but it was a cool show. nothing what i expected. they have great voices. haha mr suave. that was funny. and wouldn't you know it..one of the mr suaves was rosemarie's partner. hah. so after the concert we met up with rosemarie's parents and i was introduced to her ninay. then we waited in the lobby for the girls to finish up their pictures with the kundirana guys. it was cool in the lobby. her mom was telling us about what kind of car jenn wants when she gets her drivers license in 2 weeks. hah. good luck jenn. hah. so then the girls finally started to come into the lobby. saw jahckie. haven't seen her since rosemarie's bday weekend. hah. nice dress. so then we caravaned to this huge ass house in rb for the after party. "NO DUMPING haha you are only safe in escondido jermiah. haha. damn this house was huge. all the houses on this street were huge. dang. so we go in. we stay to eat and talk to rosemarie for awhile. barely talked to ali though. so then around 930pm we headed out. took jermiah home then i came home all sick. the short drive btwn mira mesa and pq i managed to get fully congested. wtf??? i got home to find marc and jac talking in my room as marc worked on his powerpoint presentation. then jac left then marc left. then i took a nap before work. man work sucked. i couldn't breathe. my nose was running like nonstop. i was getting light headed and stuff. but i was able to work my whole shift. then i came home.

monday
grrr!!! felt like shit this morning. was gonna stay home but i was suppose to give marc his hw..which i ended up not doing..and dad was home and we already got into a confrontation. so i went to school. got to the dome. phuck its hot. i ended up parking in the dirt. quite the walkin the fricken heat. so i got to the dome. it was trish, sing-ping, borasy, rj, andrew, joseph, and jane pearl. they were playing cards. black jack, spoons, spoons championship, super speed, and i don't know what else. it was cool. then jermiah came back from class. then jane, joseph, jermiah, and i went with borasy to her dorm. we chilled there. then jer went to his gel class and the girls chilled. then around 1240pm we headed back to the campus cause borasy had class. hah i win. i spotted jermiah a mile away. his bright orange shirt was a dead give away. hah. so then he waited for us under a tree. "oh hug a tree" hah go jane. " i'll just hug the guy under the tree" hah go me. so then we took the elevator from science II to the arts building. borasy went to class. jane and jermiah went and ran into the sprinkler. hah. so then we went to the parking lot to jane's car. then we went to eat at arby's. wow got full off a beef and chedder. damn. so after we ate we headed back. jane parked in jermiah's spot. jermiah took me to my car in the dirt. then we came home. he led the whole way. oh well. i came home and took a 3 hour nap again. haha. then got up for dinner. washed dishes then came back and have been chatting for the last like 3 hours. hah. go me. damn its fricken hot. shiet.

ok this next part is gonna be all sappy and stuff. gonna be talking about feelings concerning jermiah and quan. you don't have to read if you dont want to.

so this has been running through my mind since jermiah and i have gotten together. and i just need to write it out. when we got together i was so surprised. for so long quan was the only man i had loved and was with. and when we broke up i figured that would be it. i honestly didn't think i'd be dating again. then all of a sudden jermiah came around and swept me off my feet. and here i am, almost 9 years after quan and i got together i'm actually with someone new. and its weird. jermiah and i are affectionate in public. i mean today was the first time he's kissed me, it was a quick peck when he left for class, in front of ppl we know but we hold hands or we'll have our hands on eachother's leg. i couldn't do that with quan. we were a secret for so long. that was just the circumstance we were dealt. and when i call jermiah my boyfriend i don't have to be weary of who might hear. jane and i were talking about my relationship with jermiah on our drive to the station. and i was telling her that i was freaking out about this relationship. not in a bad way. its just that i'm feeling things that i don't recall feeling with quan. one of the main things i remember telling jane was that i don't really remember desiring quan himself. it was more for the sensations and feelings i got while with him. and yet i desired jermiah. the touch of his hands. the texture of his hands. the curves of his body. the feel of his lips. its like i can remember how he holds me for certain things. or how he moves my hair out of face. stuff like that. it can easily be chaulked up to it being a new relationship so of course i remember. but i was with quan for so long, shouldn't i recall something along these lines? i'm not gonna say this is a bashing of my relationship btwn me and quan. its just that it seems that i've entered a whole new realm of relationships. and its left me scared. scared that this is all a dream and i'll wake up soon and find out it doesn't really exist. i guess i can actually say i'm happy. i have a smile across my face when i think about him. even rosemarie has mentioned that i've looked happy. i don't know. it could just be that this is all new and exciting. or that he's managed to hit a chord in me. last night at the concert i swear i was gonna melt. we were holding hands through most of the show and stuff. but at one point i was sitting near the edge of my seat. i have no idea why? that might have been when rosemarie was dancing. but anyways. he put his arm around my shoulders. then with his hand he began to caress my cheek. OMG MELT!! i don't think i've ever felt that melting feeling. one of the things that i love about the affection, i even told him this last night, was that he'll just lean over and kiss, well actually more like nuzzle, my forehead or my cheek or my hand. wow. i know quan would kiss my hand sometimes when we were holding hands. but i don't remember him kissing/nuzzling anything else. i don't know. i guess i'm just gonna ride this ride as long as i can. right now i'm really content with the feelings that i have and i'm showed. i can't ask for anything more than that.

til we meet again

Angel remembered at 10:14:00 PM

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