A look into Jessica's life

oh man what a couple of days....but fun and entertaining despite certain stress out times or what not..

thursday
being that i didn't go to bed til 5am..when my alarm went off at 630am i said..uh hell nah..so i rolled over and went back to sleep. i didn't get to campus til like noon-ish. saw ali walking down to her car to go to palomar. hung out with her a bit. then headed into the dome. hung out there. so was not in the mood for school. was too damn tired. so chilled there with the gang. then it came time for the 1oclock classes. jermiah and i walked rosemarie to acd. i so didn't want to go to class. and kept saying that i didn't want to go to class. so after rosemarie dissed us and just walked away..hah..we headed towards university hall. again i kept chanting my lack of interest in attending class. even jermiah said "so you've been saying" heh. so we got down to the mezzanine and i ask him what is he gonna do. he said if i go to class he'll go home..but if i don't..then its settled we go to the dome.. hah. basically walked in a huge circle just to drop off rosemarie. haha. so we got to the dome and confused nik. hah. so we chilled there. then shar came up to us and she sat at the corner table, studying. then paul came around. so the guys start playing cards. i start working on rosemarie's dinner. damn that list keeps growing. yeah. find out what christa did from nik and call her about it. hah. just remember that list now christa. hah. that was a funny convo. jermiah and his "grrr"s hah. good stuff. after that i call dick's last resort and work out the reservation with them. damn 40 ppl. sheesh. but they know it's for rosemarie's bday. so i wonder what they will do to her. haha. very anxious now. hope the balloon guy is there to make her a penis hat. ahhah..:devilish grin:.. so then after that i went to the dome and got some food. i talked to jane pearl about the reservation and what not. damn my arms were hurting while talking to her. i looked like i was cold cause i kept rubbing my arms. haha. then jane pearl made me a very good sammich..thanks jane. it was yummy. so then when i got back to the table shar was at the table. she was talking to the guys. then paul tried to teach her pasoy. hah. go shar. i was suppose to study for tuesday's child development midterm. yeah not happening. so then it came time for the 3oclock apsa meeting. i was in the classroom all by myself til 4pm. good stuff. had the tv playing in the background and i read my book. hah. just some private time i guess. so then i headed back down to the dome to find rosemarie cause i was going to her house. i ran into don in the dome and he said she just left. ok...hmmm..so i went to talk to jane and she said that rosemarie was there for a long time but just left. hmmm again. so i talk some more to jane then call rosemarie. she was on her way to the parking lot when she remembered she had to do something...haha goober. so she was heading back to the campus to get me. hah. so we met at the dome. continued to talk to jane for awhile then we headed out.
damn that girl drives slow. she got on the 78 and i went the roundabout way to the 15. drove kinda slow. then finally i couldn't take it anymore so i drove normal. not long after i caught up to rosemarie on the freeway. waved then drove off. dude i couldn't stand driving speedlimit and what not anymore. luckily i already know how to get to her house. so i went on my way up to her house. parked across the street and waited for her to arrive. hah. i don't know if she sped up or what but she got to her house only a few minutes after i did.. so we went inside. jenn was sleeping. so we went into rosemarie's room for a bit. oh man we were tired. we just kept lying on the bed getting comfortable. ahha. finally we got up. started working on the apsa fliers. the stupid logo was being retarded. so i had rosemarie get up so i can tinker with the computer. she sat behind me on the chair and rested her head on my back. after a couple of minutes i felt her head sliding down my back. the girl was falling asleep. dang girl. so finally after several dozing sessions i had her go take a nap. i couldn't figure out the logo thing anyways. so she got her blanket and slept on the couch in the bonus room.so i was the only one awake in the relente house while rosemarie and jennifer slept. great. hah. and that house is fricken cold. so as i tinkered with the logo some more i chatted with glenda and vinnie. they kept me company while the sleeping beauties rested. damn rosemarie must be a deep sleeper. her phone was in her room and she didn't hear it go off. fine..so i got the phone and put it near her head on the couch in case it rang again. so i continued to talk to vinnie. he texted her to see if she's stir when the message came in but no message came in til later. but the phone did ring and it took her forever to respond. dang girl. but of course she went back to sleep after the calls and messages. i finally got the damn logo to work. so i started working on some of the flyers. then finally about an hour and half or so later rose awakes at 8pm. she gets up and cleans up then her mom gets home. then auntie wakes up jenn and so i went from a quiet sleepy house to everyone being awake and loud. hah. good stuff. so then rosemarie starts to work on one of the fliers. i told her she had to figure out how to add the logo. the damn girl cheated. i showed her how then cut the logo out. so the girl clicks on paste instead of following the steps i showed her. dammit!! haha sneaky lil thing aren't you? hah. so after thinking hard rosemarie came up with a good flier. while she was doing that i was reading excerpts from a book she had on the counter about the rules of life. cool book. then around 10pm we ate dinner. hah. me and rosemarie lag. it was good. thanks auntie. then after dinner looked at a couple of photo albums then left at 11pm. hauled ass home changed and went to work all by midnight. damn skippy. haha.

friday
so went to school to attempt to study for stats and child development. ya..that didn't happen. read my book for a bit then jermiah was inbtwn his classes so i just chilled with him. then jane pearl came. poor baby she's ill. then others came and what not. then around 1130-ish the mecha conference started to file in and take over the dome. so we moved to a more safer location. hah we went to the other corner. so then a lil before noon rosemarie and clare came around and jermiah and randy went to class. so we talked to clare for awhile...friday i'm in...hah. after a bit then ali, rosemarie, jane pearl and i went to srl to get our fliers from yesterday stamped so we can post them up. then the 4 of us wandered the campus and posted all 16 sets of fliers everywhere. that was an adventure. hah. me and jane pearl get too crazy when we are together..and what was with that guy that walked pass the elevator twice then ended up at arts with us..hmmm?!? fun stuff. so then rosemarie went home. paul, ali, jane pearl and i planned to meet up at the carlsbad outlets. so ali and paul headed up there, and i followed jane pearl to her house to drop off her car. damn could your driveway be any longer..ahh. then we headed to meet up with paul and ali at the mall. so we went back to brooks brothers to get paul's outfit. omg..when we went to get the clothing i saw the fricken price tags. it would have cost him $170 minimum to buy the chinos, shirt and sweater. WTF?!? hell nah. but we had him try it all on again so jane pearl and ali could see it. when he came out i took his picture. hah. at least we have a picture of the outfit. hah. so then paul paid for the chinos and button down shirt..fricken $106. damn. so then we walked around some more. hah look jane its the puma store..hah everytime we passed the puma store jane would pull on my arm and keep me away from the store. hah. man jane got my back on so many things. hah. we went into gap. we found paul another button down shirt. but its short sleeve and blue. well blue is nice. hah. he ended up getting it and returning the white shirt back at brooks brothers. so then around 315pm paul, jane and i headed up to tmec to go to the promenade and meet up with rosemarie. so we all jumped in my car and headed north. paul was such a sleepyhead. hah. which was fine cause jane and i were having fun with the songs and getting excited for tomorrow. so we approached tmec when i saw the backed up traffic to the indio exit and we still had to go past that to the winchester. nope not me. so i exited indio and took streets up to winchester and the mall. hah. its a good thing i've gone to the mall with rosemarie before from her house and got lost that first time going to donald and eileen's house in murrietta so i knew my way around. hah thats kinda scary that i could pull that off in tmec though. hah. so we got there. the 3 of us ate while we waited for rosemarie. yummy panda express. damn jane..hungry? hah she cleared her plate. i wasn't even close to that. hah. poor jane was still ill. so then paul went to walk around and me and jane went into charlotte rousse to look around til rosemarie got there. we found jane some pants and a shirt to try on. when she got out of the dressing room rosemarie had already arrived. oh man that girl had way too much energy and excitement. she was walking every which way and grabbing stuff. she even was set on a hat. hah. so she brought that into the dressing room for jane. when jane came out with the new top on rosemarie went crazy. gave jane the hat then went to get accessories: belt, earrings, and choker. hah. real quickly jane had her outfit. love the toe socks. ahh. so then came me..oh no...run..so we walked around the mall. paul came into charlotte rousse when jane was paying. he found a new shirt to wear. it looks like a "paul shirt". a shirt that paul would wear. hah. so then we walked along the mall. we got to papaya. paul didnt want to walk inside so he wondered the mall some more. poor guy. so the 3 girls went inside. man the colors. it so reminds me of forever 21. so anyhoo. now was the time to search for clothes for me. yeah. jane and rosemarie were choosing blouses of various styles. rosemarie had picked this one blouse and when i saw it i tried to run and hide from her.."why is she running away from me?" haha. after all was said and done, when i was dressed in my own clothes i still felt like i wasn't wearing much cause of the shirts i tried on. we finally chose a black sleeveless, cleaver blouse. its nice. i like. man i'm gonna wear a sleeveless shirt. what is this world coming to. ahha. damn cleaver. hah. so then we went to claire's and afterthoughts to find accessories for me. rosemarie chose a red rose choker from papaya for me. hmmmm interesting. omg the girl wanted me to wear lace gloves...WTF???? luckily they didn't have any. oh man. yeah so we got me earrings. so then it was time to leave. so we headed out to the parking lot. rosemarie drove us to my car which was on the other side of the mall. then we all headed out. we headed back into tmec so i can get gas at the arco on the corner of sr-79 and margarita. when i pulled up, of course i had the music kinda bumping, so we got stared at. then paul was adding his own bass saying that i lacked bass. so i changed the settings and gave him what he wanted. hah. then we headed back down to san diego. we dropped off jane then headed back to the outlets to get paul's car. he headed into the mall to return the gap shirt. i headed to the el camino real mall to buy the hair accessories that we forgot to get at claire's. oops. so i got that. then i headed down to encinitas and checked out the opening of "the parking lot". the teen dance club hosted by hopstar. hah. so i snuck in and said hi to joy and ryan. talked to them for awhile then came home. tomorrow is gonna be fun.

saturday
oh man. so excited. star search then clubbing. yayee!! so i got up and got ready. oh man. i feel like a prostitute. hmmm cleaver hmmm. so anyways i start cleaning out the car so we can head to la. jermiah arrives and we head off to pick up ali. on our way there i call up jane to see if she's almost ready and while talking to her i realize i forgot the damn rose. so after getting ali we head back to my house. my feet are already killing me so i ask ali to run upstairs to get what i forgot. which, i might add, grew as we journeyed back to my house. so we finally get everything and head up to jane's house. we pick her up and head to school. christa, rj, paul and trish were at starbucks so we went to campus to pick up arckay then headed to starbucks. although i feel like a prostitute i thought the baby blue shirt i wore clubbing last time was more revealing than what i was wearing today. but when i walked inside trish was just staring at me. and all she could say was "wow". i brought up the fact that i thought the baby blue was worse and she said that as soon as she saw me she thought this one was worse. oh man. what did i get myself into. immediately jane and i notice that paul isn't wearing his paul shirt but the blue one from the gap. so then we start asking him about it. kinda freaked him out though. hah. oops. rj kept saying he felt under dressed. so then after we put all of jane's accessories on and paul called her "janet" as in jackson. hahah. so now jane is the pinay britney and janet. hah. ]i got my coffee we headed out. but of course jane was trying to wrestle me for the rose cause i was still hesitant to wear it. hah. but alas i still had it. so we went to ralphs so jane can buy film for her and christa. while she was in the store ali and i stayed in the car. i started putting on my make up. god i hate make up. anyhoo. jane returned and we headed for ucla. poor ali she must have been tired cause she crashed out really quickly. jane and i were having fun during the drive...hey jane tell them to turn off their blinker. haha. "pua pua" damn cars need to go faster. "stop and wiggle it" ahha. good stuff. then we put on the janet cd. hah. me and jane were clubbin ourselves the whole drive up there. hah. so then we finally got to ucla. wow chris and quinn live not that far from eachother. hah. so while we were there we tried to take care of jane's pants. they were too long. chillin on the stairs working on some pants. hah. got stared at. fun stuff. so then after dealing with that and the slice on my hand compliments of jane and her tape we went on our way. the studio isn't all that far from where family feud was. so we got there. damn no parking. everyone else was still stuck on the 5 north. traffic. hopefully they get there soon. so our car waited in line then not long after trish, paul and jermiah arrived. right before we went inside rj, christa and arckay arrived. so the latter had to stay in line. i had them look out for ron and his wife too. unfortunately after everything was said and done they couldn't get in. the audience was full already. but we did get credit for them coming up. so ron and his wife headed home..thanks guys..and rj, christa and arckay went shopping in hollywood while we were in the studio.
so we are being herded into the studio and sat down. all of a sudden they pull jane and chris away from us. they put them in the front row. hah. rosemarie's choices got jane noticed so they sat them where the camera can catch them. hah good job to rosemarie for good picks and good job for jane for looking good in rosemarie's picks. haha. the rest of us were sat in the far corner of the studio. we could see the stage but we could only see the back of mc lyte's head. but we were sitting next to the stage entrance so i got to see naomi judd and mc lyte up close. tttiiigghhtt!! i didn't know the 3rd judge so i didn't notice him hah. but where we were sitting i could see the live playback that was being aired on the east coast. so the show went on. =*( we missed seeing marc mejia perform by a week. last week he won his certified spot in the finals so he's not performing for a couple of weeks. sucky. oh well. he looked so cute in his barong tagalog. but the show was actually pretty good. i liked that one better than the family feud though. one of the performers during the preshow, which was a showcase of talent from the audience, was soooooooo much better than the 2 competitors in the adult singer division. oh well. but it was cool. during the challenge the defender played a piano that was brought out. and i was watching the playback i caught jane and chris being filmed a couple of times. yayee!!! after the show we got to jane and chris and i told them what i saw. it was cool. so afterwards we left. we called up christa to find out where they were. so we all set out to meet them down the street at the payless. so while we were sitting in the parking lot of the strip mall across from payless trish and i decided we'd go to roscoes again. so they headed out and i waited for rj and them to get over to me. after i gave christa directions i went to start the car and my car went haywire. my battery fricken died. my alarm was going off and all this other crap. so then trish happened to call and jane told her what was going on. so chris went to get rj and trish came back. they guys tried figuring out what the hell is going on. we ended up taking the battery out and trish and paul and jermiah took it to the autozone down the street. the rest of us chilled in yoshinoya, getting food, til they came back. trish called and had a bunch of questions of me so i asked rj to take me down the autozone. we ended up just buying a new one. thanks trish. then we went back to yoshinoya. trish, paul and jermiah headed to roscoes anyway. so rj put my battery in and it was all better. when i went to turn on the car my stereo lcd stayed on. dammit there wasn't anything wrong with my stereo, the battery was too weak to light it up. hah. so then rj and i joined the rest of them in the yoshinoya. so we ordered our food and ate. then the 3 others arrived and chilled with us. after we were done eating jane and i fixed our make up and then we started taking pictures. yeah we are ghetto, we take pictures in a yoshinoya. hah. so jane and i took our pictures for rosemarie. hah. then we took pictures of everyone else. except for trish. i didn't get a solo of that girl. damn you. hah. so after that we headed to the club down on santa monica blvd. oh man. it turns out that the club is a strip club before hand. hmmm interesting. since we didn't know if there was a coat check jane and i left our jackets in the car. OH MY FRICKEN GOD ITS FREEZING!! oh man and my shirt was sleeveless and it was cold, wet, and windy. so we went to the club to find out that it didn't open til 10pm and it was like 920pm. instead of going back to the car we just stood there waiting. thanks chris for trying to keep me warm. jane stood on my side and chris stood in front of me trying to block the wind. oh man its cold. then trish and her gang came around then christa and her gang arrived. then rj, christa and i decided we should move our cars cause there were signs everywhere about no parking at night or something. we drove around and finally parked like 4 blocks west but like 2 blocks north of the club. oh man that was a long as walk. and cold as hell too. damn. so we got to the club and guy offered us discount fliers so we took them and got in. after we checked in rj and christa's jackets and our umbrellas we met up with the gang at the table. so then the clubbing began. yeah baby!!the club was ok. the djs were a lil whack. there were 2 sets and stuff wasn't right. there was a stripper pole in the middle of the dance floor. yeah..after a long while trish and i finally went to it. hah. i can't believe i danced on a stripper pole =? first it was me and trish together then she got down and yet i didn't follow for some time. hmmmmm interesting. yeah anyhoo. the night ended with a stripper. WTF?? i don't get it. hmmph. so we left. we went to our cars then went to dennys on santa monica blvd near the 101..same one paul, trish and i ate when we went to family feud. but trish, paul and jermiah headed home instead. gotta love those french slams..hah. stomach decided to be a pain...literally. omg the pain was so much. i ended up falling asleep along the wall with christa's scooby blanket. oops. jane wasn't to thrilled to know i was that tired since i was driving home, not to mention she wasn't too thrilled when she found out i snuck a drink at the club. so we went back to chris' dorm and i took a nap. we left ucla about 530am. jane slept in the car. i only woke her up when i started falling asleep at the wheel. damn its hard to wake her up. hah. it is odd to drive from ucla to escondido and start off in the dark and end with the sun piercing you in the eyes. damn. the rain sucked monkey balls though. it was just pouring the whole time was i was driving home. and sometimes i had to reallllllly slow down cause the rain was too much. grrrr got home around 8am. took a shower then crashed out for a couple of hours.

sunday
quan called me around 1030am. told him what time i got home so told him i'd call him later. crashed out again. got up around 230pm cause jac was stirring around my room. got up and did the online thing. hah. chatted with glenda, jane and vinnie and situated the plan for rosemarie's bday. should be fun. hah. quan came over and installed the new norton. first time in a very long time we have seen eachother or even really talked. weird. yeah. anyhoo. talked to rosemarie on the phone about debut practice and clubbing while i proofread jane's paper. then hung out some more with quan. then he went home. i went back online again and chatted with vinnie and rosemarie. hmmm interesting conversations btwn me and vinnie. hmm i still feel like i broke a rule or something..but it is for the best..ya know vinnie? yeah. anyhoo. ended up helping rosemarie with her paper til like 1am. interesting conversations mixed in there too. heh. love the way you write now rosemarie. now if we can only get you to talk like that .hah. .:sniff sniff:. i'm not needed anymore. and how the hell did i know the translation to "hindi ko alam kung gumagawa ako kung wala ka" damn i'm becoming a fob..haha. anyhoo. i need sleep damn it. its already after 2am. i'll study for stats at school with paul.

til we meet again

btw..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAR!!

Angel remembered at 1:15:00 AM

Sunday, February 22, 2004

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Third Level of Hell!
Third Level of Hell

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In the third circle, you find yourself amidst eternal rain, maledict, cold, and heavy. The gluttons are punished here, lying in the filthy mixture of shadows and of putrid water. Because you consumed in excess, you meet your fate beneath the cold, dirty rain, amidst the other souls that there lay unhappily in the stinking mud. Cerebus, a canine monster cruel and uncouth with his three heads and red eyes, dwells in this level. He growls and tears at the damned with his teeth and claws.

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers) Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers) Low
Level 2 (Lustful) Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous) High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious) Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy) Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics) Very Low
Level 7 (Violent) High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers) High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous) Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

...hehe..see vinnie i will see you in hell..hahah

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Angel remembered at 3:08:00 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2004

.:sigh:. the interesting life i lead.

first before i start my recount i have to post some comments that came out of rosemarie the last couple of days..

rosemarie tells me i look pretty...so naturally my answer is "whatever"..she doesn't like that answer from me so her rebuttle.."i'm the beholder and i know what beauty is" omg. i just sat there. i have never heard that come back from anyone before. oh man. that amazed me so much that i had no alternative than to write it in my day planner so i wouldn't forget.

monday night i was chatting with quan and i had rosemarie on the phone. and the chat was just....yeah..grr..anyhoo. rosemarie was getting all attitudey with comebacks for every i/m message. hah. "if he's so horny then get a prostitute" WTF?? this just came out of rosemarie...hahah. oh man..that girl!!
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well after i finished blogging last time, i went to valley view casino with my mom. yeah...i don't care for that casino. there really weren't a lot of games that interested me. and the card tables had little to no selection. basically it was blackjack or 3 card poker. yeah not my cup of tea. no war, no texas hold'em, no let it ride. tsk tsk. but dude..we were there for almost 6 hours. my mom kept playing and playing. even the few 20s i won my mom spent on more games. i spent most of the night following her around cause there was nothing else for me to do. sucky. so we got home and i crashed out.

sunday
so my phone rings at like 8am. its joy calling to give me directions to hopstar. so after that i crash out for another hour then get up and get ready. so i get dressed and get the cameras all set up and head for hopstar in encinitas. my job for the day...to take pictures of the open house that hopstar was having. so the plan is for me to basically document the entire day. yeah fun stuff. so i get to the center and walk in. it was cool to see some of the p-o-ples again. saw alli, david, marco....jonny and jeremy...and yeah. so we diddle daddled a bit as we prepped the boxing club for the open house. i got a tour of the center too. nice dance rooms. the small one is small but its cool. nice art work on the walls. me like me like. so anyways. so i got to meet some cool people too, like courtney and sarah. hah. we had to wear name tags. so we decide what to put on mine. hmmm considering certain people, i wasn't too thrilled having to share first initial with those people. so we finally decided to put my name as Angel. so my name tag read "HELLO MY NAME IS ANGEL. THE PHOTO CHICK" hahah. so then the rest of the day i was being called angel and jess. haha. a lil confusing. oh well. as the day progressed i was taking pictures of the different classes offered. the stomp class was pretty cool. i, personally, personally didn't take any classes. that was my goal..to not dance. hah. jess prevails and joy fails. ahha. sorry. ok. so then joy teaches her salsa hip hop class. i'm standing in the front of the class taking pictures and what not. in the corner of my eye i see some people walk in late in the back. so i turn my head just to look and i recognize of the girls that just walked in. omg its my cousin jodi. wth? so i go over and say hi. find out that her friends know people on THE EFFECT and they told them about the open house. so then i tell jodi that joy is the instructor. hah. small world. so they do the class and i run back and forth btwn joy's class and marco's hip hop class. there was a lil girl in marco's class. she was so cute just trying to memorize the choreography. heh. so after the end of joy's class i brought jodi up to joy and she was tripping out. the last time they saw eachother was jac's debut and that was almost 3 years ago. and jodi has grown up a lot since then..well from 13-16 yrs old. hah. so the day was somewhat fun just chilling and what not. the performances were awesome. they showcased all the groups that are related to hopstar to entice people to take classes and what not. the kids were tight. THE CAUSE which is 8-12 yr olds were cute. dude..they ended their performance doing stalls (break dancing poses..and they were mainly all white..wth?). joy, marco, sarah, johnny, david, and alli showed their swing piece to help stall for the dancers to change their costumes. david aka rufio, marco, johnny and alli showed off their "rufio remix" routine. i hope they do something like that for our apsa airbands. the final performance for THE EFFECT was tight. i love watching them. there is one dancer, tracy, she totally reminded me of andi. her appearance and her demeaner and of course her dance skills. these are 2 black chicks trapped in a white chicks' bodies. hah. so finally around like 730pm we were done with the open house and the club was clean and we can finally go. so a whole bunch of us headed to leucadia to try out a new sushi place. it was ok. i like the deep fried philly rolls. my crunchy roll was good too. thanks again ryan for dinner. so then finally around 930-ish i got to head home and study for tomorrow's psych testing midterm. ewww. =/ i got home and studied a bit more. chatted a bit with rosemarie and chris ho. it was weird though, like i told rosemarie...1) i was studying..jess and studying don't go together normally and 2) except for the occasional sounds from the messages from rosemarie and chris, i was in silence. i didn't have the radio on, nor did i feel the need to have the radio on. thats scary. so after a lil more studying i crashed out for the night.

monday
ok i got up kinda early..well actually on time. 645am. no snooze this time. so i got ready and after being amused by my sister as she slept...i went into her room and asked her if she had any index cards. she woke up enough to move...first she placed her hand in the trashcan then quickly pulled it back when she realized where her hand was. then she felt around the bed behind her. then she felt around on arnell's back then fell back to sleep. not once saying anything to me. so i ask again and she says "nooo" then falls asleep again. she didn't even remember me walking into her room. hah...i went to school. got on campus around 815am. got really good parking too. first lot. wow. so i went to the c-store to get my scantron and a drink then went to bookstore to get index cards. as i was walking into the bookstore rosemarie, jane pearl and teresa walked out. we said our hellos, rosemarie wished me luck then we went our separate ways. so i got my index cards and headed to class. there were already people in class and our class doesn't start til 9am. you can tell it was midterm day. so i went over my notes and proceeded to prep my cheat sheet note card. then megan and mbarak arrived. then not long after dr thomas arrived and started passing out the midterm. freaking out? hell yeah. but dude i finished my test within 20 or so minutes. and i wasn't the first one done. so i went to the dome and sat with jessica and ali. oh man i was so brain dead. i had trouble thinking or doing much of anything. i just kept staring off. i felt so tired and what not. oh man. so i went and got food. i got a sandwhich. figured it wouldn't take that much thought. so i was eating. then rosemarie and others came around after class. so we are all hanging out. *insert rosemarie comment #1 here* yeah. while i was eating some one arrived that i wasn't too pleased to see. and i was trying to let rosemarie know that. when all of sudden she proceeds to burp in my direction, rather loudly i might add. yeah..diana would be so proud. hah. so later we are all talking and rose tells us that paul is coming to hang with her. so i tell her maybe he's bringing her her vday gift...she's freaks cause she didn't get him anything. hah good job goober. so we tell her to get him a jones soda before he walks up to the dome. so her and jane pearl go to the c-store and get a jones soda for paul. so i have it behind me. paul arrives and gives rosemarie her gift. it was cute. [check on her blog and see if she talks about it..i'll let her talk about it first]. she feels so bad. so i hand her the jones soda and she gives it to him and she feels so bad that it doesn't compare. so then she starts asking me for help on how to make things better and give him a good gift. so we are talking about it and what not then suddenly rosemarie suggests that we go get it now. i had some time before my 3pm class so we head out and begin our project. oh man. we went around san marcos a bit trying to get everything we needed. that was an adventure in itself. first we went to guitar center to get him guitar picks. that was interesting just seeing the variety. so after a couple of "change of mind" selections we choose silver and black fender picks. i like them. so while rosemarie paid i wondered into the drum area. GOD I MISS DRUMMING. they had a drum pad that you can test out. it felt so good to feel the drum sticks bounce in my grip. this probably sounds so odd, but i loved drumming. sometimes i regret giving it up, but in the long run it was for the best that put music behind me. but yeah. anyhoo. so as i was coming out of the drum area rosemarie was approaching me. so we left. then headed to wal-mart. we went into the new wal-mart in san marcos. omg that place is huge. we immediately found the hershey's hugs..mm yummy. so then we started walking down the aisles to find the silver sharpies, colored seran wrap and ribbon, and a card. so we found the sharpie. and wouldn't you know it, it was the very last set of silver sharpies. yayee us!! see it just was meant to be. so then we headed down to find the seran wrap when we came across the card section. so rosemarie went to find a card and i wondered on a couple of aisles to check for the seran wrap. dude they didn't have any...at all. however, rosemarie and i managed to lose eachother in this short space. i walked around and she walked around and we didn't manage to run into eachother til after she left me a message on my vmail wondering where i wondered off to. dang. we are just so talented. so we went to pay. we tried the new self cashier machines they have. hmmm interesting. but at least we know it gives change. huh rosemarie?!? so we left. of course we managed to lose my car. i told you i was brain dead after my midterm. but while in the parking lot rosemarie again graces me with her burpiness. oh man. could we see a pattern forming here? yeah well yeah. so we found my car. the security guard even drove by as we looked for my car and proceeded to laugh at us outloud. yeah thanks a lot buddy. =? after wal-mart we headed to longs to see if they had any seran wrap. and the answer was no. but rosemarie found her card for paul there. then we went to ralphs. come on now..its a fricken grocery store. nope no colored seran wrap. as a matter of fact they only had 1 brand of seran wrap. so we went ahead and bought it. we also bought a spirally ribbon of dark blue and light blue strands to use. so rosemarie pays and we head to the other side of the shopping center to starbucks to work on the gifts. so rosemarie gets us a table and i get us some coffee...yummy chocolate brownie frap. so i sit down then we begin our lei project. it was decided to make paul candy leis with hershey's hugs. since rosemarie is notorious for her hugs. so we set it up and i show rosemarie how to make the leis. fun stuff though. i kept confusing her though, i was so brain dead that i kept staring out the window. but i was the one wrapping the candies. oops. sorry. it is during this craft session that rosemarie graces the entire starbucks with one of her burps. oh man. cracks me up. not as loud at the one in the dome..but greatly comparitable. so finally after all our laughter and goofyness we head back to the school. as we are approaching the 1st parking lot entrance we see paul driving along side us. wth? so we hope he's heading towards the dome instead of home. hey that rhymes. ok nebermind dat. as we are walking up towards the dome guess was rosemarie does. yup ladies and gents she burps yet again. hehe. so we get to the dome and they tell us that paul was going to the gym with jane pearl, ali and jermiah. ah. that explains him driving next to us. ok, so we decide to walk down to the gym so we can give him his gift. so we call paul up and tell him to wait til we get there. after our winded journey around the campus we get to the gym. as we are crossing the street we run into jane pearl and ali. so we all walk together. we find paul sitting there on the couch and jermiah is just pacing around. so rosemarie takes out the leis and leis paul saying "now you can say you were "lei'd" by your valentine" hahah good stuff. so then he opens the rest of his gifts and gets sooooooooooo excited when he takes out the silver sharpies. hah. you are so funny paul. well by this time i'm wiped out as is rosemarie. so we let the 4 of the go work out and rosemarie and i just chill on the couch. heh. we are so tired and worn out from our adventure. so then jane pearl gets out of the gym and heads to her 3pm class. then paul and jermiah come out and change. paul, nor i, are really interested in going to stats. i'm too brain dead to sit in a boring class and attempt to think. so we decide not to go. but we do decide to head up to the carlsbad outlets and see if marychael really does work at jockey. of course we make that decision but it takes us almost 30 minutes to actual stand up and execute this plan. jermiah decides to go home. so its just the 3 of us. paul drives and we head over to carlsbad. so when we get there we go into jocket and wouldn't you know it..marychael was right there in front of the store. she approaches us and we get introduced to her. hmmm. so she's kinda weirded out and so is paul. so we walk around the store as not to make it obvious that she was why we were there..good call rosemarie. so then after awhile, and after smelling stank ass pillows, we start to walk around the mall. we decide to play dress up with paul..hah. basically try to find him an outfit for this weekend. so we wonder around and check out the gap, and stores like that. we are walking when we notice that there is a jewelry store called "pauling diamonds" haha. so paul go gets a business card from there. while he was in the jewelry store this chick at a kiosk stops rosemarie and starts asking her how old she is. wtf? basically she was on the phone with a male friend who told her to find him someone pretty to date. and she (actually said this) thought that rosemarie was pretty and was wondering if she would be willing to go with her friend...WTF??? rosemarie is kinda stunned so i chimed in and said "she's engaged" and wouldn't you know it..the one time i really need rosemarie to be wearing a ring she wasn't. dammit. oh well. but then rosemarie say "yeah i'm engaged to her" and points to me. ok i can go along with that. ya know keeps her away from this guy, who ever he is. but then she adds "but i'm not les" omg rosemarie. couldn't you have left well enough alone. haha. and right then paul comes back out and is walking up to us asking whats going on. thats our cue to leave. so i reach over and grab rosemarie's hand and hold it til we are out of eye sight of that chick. who the hell does things like that? oh geez. so we continue our shopping spree. we check out kenneth coles, and barnaby new york. the clothes didn't do paul justice there. so then rosemarie and i started talking about dressing him up in khakis, a white button down shirt and a sweater vest or something. so we walked around some more and came across brooks brothers. and wouldn't you know it they had just about what we said. except instead of the sweater vests we put him in a blue argyle long sleeve sweater. got him some khaki chinos. when he walked out it was like...wow. he looked good. the style fit him. we are used to him in tshirts and his zip ups. so you can't always tell if the preppy look is gonna fit them but for paul it did. me and rosemarie were happy campers. hah. so after paul became normal again in his own clothes we headed back to school cause we had an apsa exec meeting. so we got stuff taken care of for airbands and up coming events. man we are gonna be busy. so then after the meeting talked to rosemarie a bit then we went home. well she did. i had to go run inang errands and get stuff that was on sale everyone cause of president's day. sheesh. i came home and planned on taking a quick nap then study and work on stats homework. uh not gonna happen.

tuesday
it was a good thing i set my alarm for school when i took my "nap" cause i woke up in the morning still in my jeans and jacket and what not. my contacts were still in my eyes and my computer was still on. i was still logged onto aim. yeah my nap became a full slumber. felt good though. heh. so i got up, got ready and went to school. child dev was ok. after that nimitz and i talked a bit then i went to the dome. hung out with jane pearl, ron and jermiah. i know others trickled in and out but i can't really recall who they were sorry. around 1230pm rosemarie wonders into the dome from the gym. heh. so we hang a lil more then head off to our 1oclock classes. oh man my biopsych class was boring. we learned about the retina. sheesh. after that i ran into nimitz at the dome. while i was talking to him i saw tina barlolong by the book store so i went out to talk to her. we ended up chillin for the longest time just talking and what not. we were looking at the clearance stuff outside the book store when we got nimitz to perform his "miracle of birth" skit. hahha. oh man. made everyone around there laugh. hah. so 4 oclock rolls around and still no rosemarie so i call her up. turns out she's at the library. so tina and i head over there. we ended up going on friendster and looking up old friends. hah. john san juan. his profile is hilarious. so then tina and i went back outside and hit up the starbucks. yummy iced white chocolate mocha. mmmm. so we talked. tina put me in my place about my notes. haha. then rosemarie finally wonders out of the library. the 3 of us talk then tina leaves and lester comes around. i ended up spending like almost 2 hours helping him with his outline. i felt bad cause my vocab kept flying right over him. it was kinda hard to simplify my speech. it was cool though. after many attempts i was able to simplify it enough for him to understand. hah. then nik came around and we found out that we were way off.hah. oops. but we were able to set up the outline from what nik told us. then around 645-ish we head down to the chavez parking lot. yeah rosemarie gonna take you to southside..its ghetto. hah. so then rosemarie drove us to our cars. talked some more with her and chris llanes on the phone. then we went home. i got home and we decided what to eat for dinner. OLIVE GARDEN!! so we went. haven't had that in a while. yyuuummmmyyy!! chicken fettucine alfredo with zuppa toscana. my olive garden staple. so then after we got home jac and i took off for ucsd to do some studying. oh man my stats hw sucks monkey balls. but yeah. came home a lil after midnight. tried to blog this entry but that didn't finish. dude i started blogging this entry like on monday. its almost 5am on thursday and i'm hoping to finish. but i digress. had a bewildering conversation tonight with quan. stuff was being said that i never thought would ever escape his lips. hmmmm. yeah....

wednesday
so hard to get up after last nights call and what not. got up and went to school. in psych testing we were discussing reliability. so she had us break off into groups of 3 and measure something to see if we could all come up with the same length. we did part of the white board. then we decided to measure me. OH MY GOD I WAS GONNA SERIOUSLY START CRYING!!!! i could totally feel the tears begin to swell in my eyes. i was measured at 58 inches. wait...thats right..4ft 10 inches. dude our calcs were saying i was 4 ft 8 inches. WTF!! damn calcs. anyhoo i was under the impression i shrunk again. piece of shiet. dammit. ..::sigh::.. so yeah. at the end of class we got our midterms back. i passed. i got a 72%. but mbarak and megan didn't. they both got mid 60s. how the hell did i do better than them. they are constantly studying. yikes. i mean good for me for passing but dang. then went into the dome and helped jane pearl with her math. that was soooo pissing me off. i'm glad i finally figured it out. then after her math i sat at the table in the corner and did my stats. ok that was hell. so much work for such a small amount of problems. didn't even finish it. i finished all the computation but didn't even bother with the essays. paul just copied my hw. he didn't go to class cause he had to work. so i went to class by myself. me and leezel talked about the psych testing test. dude i wonder what she got. cause she wouldn't show me her test. but she looked distraught about it. poor baby. so then after class i went to the gym by myself. was kinda weird but ok. did cardio for 30 minutes. did some arm stuff, my abs and of course my legs. came home and chatted with some people about rosemarie's bday dinner. then took a nap. joy called and talked to her for a bit. got up and chatted with rosemarie and christa a lil then went off to work. it was ok. my damn lrt was slow as fuck though. eww. but here i am at is 452am and i finally have finished this damn entry. i'm going to bed. hopefully i'll wake up in time for class.

til our paths cross again

Angel remembered at 3:12:00 AM

Saturday, February 14, 2004

have you just ever been awaken by a phone call and despite the length of the call you find yourself very......GRRR!! yeah well thats how my friday morning began. love getting calls like those don't you?!? GRRRR!!! eww. yeah i'll get back to that later.

anyhoo. so yeah how has my last few days have been? eh..somewhat bleh and somewhat fun. so on wednesday i went to my psych testing class. ok, yeah clowned from the get go. so as soon as i walk in megan starts to act surprised that i was in class. yeah yeah. sheesh. so her, john and i are talking and being dorks. oh man megan was in overdrive. how many red bulls did you drink? heh. anyhoo. so then john went to his seat then mbarak comes in. oh yeah got it from him too. "you know i have a classmate in my class 2 days a week not just 1." har har. sheesh people. so we were all studying for the quiz. and wouldn't you know it i had the study guide just about done. i did it last semester and when i pulled it out this morning to see what might be on the quiz i found out that i actually did the essay parts except for the very last one. and that one didn't pertain to my quiz. so..good stuff. i think i did ok on the quiz. as soon as i got the quiz i fricken blanked out. WTF!!! yeah so not cool. but then i guess we'll see when we get the quizzes back. found out that our test is on monday.WTH!! i have test tomorrow in biopsych then a test on monday for psych testing. what the...? yeah. so jess is shitting bricks about now. so our class was rather boring as usual. megan and mbarak entertained me. although i did ask if it was safe for me to sit inbtwn them. usually i sit on the left of megan and mbarak is on her right. and the fact that megan was on hyper overdrive..hmm interesting. she kept texting people during the lecture. and we made sure that all 3 of us had eachother's numbers. the next thing i know my phone is ringing..and the caller id says mbarak. "dude, you are sitting right next to me" hah. after that i went to the dome. still not ready to go to the gym. still hurt. still in pain. tried studying a bit for biopsych. GOD i hate bio. it sucks! got some work done. jane pearl was making fun of me.."gee ate' thats a lot of pens there" yeah and? haha. when i take notes, which i was doing, i have my pencil, pen, and several highlighters. and thats how i take notes in class as well. and each color pertains to something specific. orange=chapters/main titles, purple=subcategories of those chapters/main titles, pink=subcatergories of those subcategories or segments, yellow=vocabulary/definitions. so yeah. i like it that way. so i was studying biopsych and jane pearl was next to me studying history or something. rj was adjacent to jane pearl, sleeping, when his phone went off and scared the crap out of jane pearl. hah its ok jp. damn his phone is loud. its so small but has so much sound. so then later paul copied my stats homework then we went into the computer lab to write up the essay parts. thrilling. so then we went to class. the material we were gonna cover was the exact same stuff we covered in psych testing. and dr thomas came to the back of the class where me and leezel were sitting and we talked about how it overlapped. dr thomas made a comment how she hates teaching it when she just teached it a couple of hours ago. i suggested that leezel teach it.. yeah she probably hates me now. hah. thrilling stuff. can you feel the sarcasm?!? but we did get out a bit early. yayee. so then paul and i went to see if anyone was in the dome. and alas there was no one. so we headed home. on my way home i called ali to see if she wanted to hang with me at starbucks cause i needed to study and i knew i wouldn't be able to do it at home and i hate being alone. so she said yeah. yayee!! so then i called paul and told him what the plan was and all 3 of us met at starbucks pq. i actually got some studying done. paul disappeared for awhile and returned with a new guitar case. hah. so then christa and rj came around and ended up hanging with us. it was cool. then paul left, then ali left. me, christa and rj sat there for another 2.5 hours talking til the starbucks closed. hah. it was cool just talking and hanging with them. i like times like that. i have to have more of those. heh. then i came home and surfed the net til it was time to go to work.

thursday
well i kept putting off getting up but did get up in time to get to class a lil early. and i got parking in a normal parking lot. can you believe it? yeah me neither. so child development was ok. we learned about zygotes and stuff like that. freaked out nimitz, poor guy. the girl that sat next to nimitz on his left, i was on his right, and i have biopsych together. so we were talking about today's test and if we are ready and if we need a scantron or anything. nimitz thought we were talking abut child development. he was ready to kiel over. sorry dude. hah. so then after class i headed to the dome. i should have studied more but didn't. instead i sat there most of the time chatting with adam and jane pearl. fun stuff. adam mainly sat on my lap for the whole conversation. me and jane pearl both smacked his hand. he kept leaning jane pearl's chair back while she sat in it. i slapped his hand to tell him not to do that..and i forgot why jane pearl slapped him. oh man i got scared of jane pearl. i mentioned that i have only been in biopsych twice out of 7 classes. ok maybe i've been ther like 4 now that i think about it. but anyways she jumped up and reached for me and i shot back in my seat. oh man i reacted so fact that my abs hurts from tightening in fear. hah. good stuff though. thanks jane pearl for looking out for me. heheh. so i went to class and bombed my exam. well i really don't know that for sure but i'm sure i did. just about nothing looked familiar. wth? eww. so then after class i started heading to the dome when i heard my name called. it was rosemarie. she was coming from the gym. she looked cute. but you can tell she was hurting from the gym. she wouldn't lift her feet more than usual. while walking towards craven we ran into nino. so i introduced rosemarie to nino. we talked about school and stuff. we were telling rosemarie some of the easy GE teachers. heh. while we were talking we saw pam. so she came over. me and pam were clowning rosemarie for her laggingness on writing pam back. hah. just teasing you nining. introduced pam to nino. we all talked for a little more then headed to the dome. chilled there with ali, paul, jermiah and nik. paul had his guitar with him. so we had him play the muppet babies theme for pam. she was cracking up. hah. i love when he plays that. then rosemarie headed off to her 230 class. oh man. out of no where paul was doing some strange stuff to me. he kept grabbing at my armpits for some reason. then while he was playing pasoy dos with the guys he turned around and bit my shoulder. then later paul would play the chords and nik would strum the guitar. interesting. then rosemarie came back after her class. she didn't stay long. then ali and i decided to skip the gym. when we headed home i went to cardiff to joy's place. the plan was to do make a flyer for hopstar. yeah of course that started really late. i got to her place around 6pm. we talked a bit then i went and got the culture shock dvd from my car for her. then we spent the next 2 hours watching it. she liked switzerland too. in the middle of it ryan came around. he made me a tv dinner. it was good. i liked it. so then finally around 9-ish we started working on the flyer. we ended up having to do a makeshift photo shoot. we were gonna use my digital camera but 1) the batteries were dying 2) her printer didn't like my memory card. so we had to ixnay that plan. so we ended up using her polaroid joycam. so we tried to make the best out of the 8 shots we had left in it. ok, that didn't go smoothly. we were talking about a whole bunch of different stuff, that had nothing to do with the photos. and then trying to do the photos were hilarious anyways. we should have known that when me and joy work together..way too much laughter happens. its all good though. we got it done. i still think that pictures looks upside down...we wanted to do an angle type shot. so she was sitting in a chair backwards and i lied down on the floor, backwards, directly below her. i turned the camera right side up still. and yet the picture still looks like its upside down. hmmmm go figure. so after scanning and cropping and tinkering with the pictures we finally got a cheesy but decent enough flyer for her. we'll have to do a better one next time. but i did get a new hat out of this. she had a black golfers hat that she was gonna wear. but it didn't look right with her outfit so i just arbitrarily put it on. and she liked how it looked on me so she told me to keep it. so i did. hah. so then finally around 115am-ish i left her place and headed home. checked a little email...aha strong bad..then crashed for the night after 2am.

friday
got an early ass phone call from quan. the topic of our conversation just made me "grr". dude, if you are courting some chick already then why do you call me about that particular subject? shouldn't you be interested in her not me? GRRR!!!! so after that call, yeah didn't really want to get out of bed but did anyways. headed up to campus and got there around 930am. was kinda nice to park in the first parking lot again. i guess there was no blasting today so all the faculty got to park upstairs like normal. so i got to the dome. i walked in and it was ali, rosemarie, joseph, randy, nik, and......i swear there was someone else. hmm. so anyways rosemarie commented on the fact that i was wearing a hat. she came over and fixed it. so i wore joy's hat to school today. rosemarie liked it. she showed me the new book she's reading. she seemed really excited about it. ok. mainly cause the book is about religion and the Virgin Mary. ok. so then it came time for everyone's 10am class. so we all walked up towards...oh the missing person was ryan..yayee i remembered...acd to drop everyone off at their classes. then rosemarie and i started walking towards her class. on our way we ran into jermiah. so the 3 of us walked to arts for rosemarie's class. she was late. and no, i had nothing to do with that. so she went to class. so then i told jermiah that ali and were gonna go to the gym later if he wanted to join us. he said yes. and he said he'd join me in the library too. cool. poor baby. i called him on his crush on rosemarie. its cool though. just giving him a heads up. YOU HAVE TO TALK TO HER!! but yea. so we went into the library and we saw a***** at one of the computers. jermiah and i quickly headed to the elevators. it was a good thing i was wearing a hat though. cause no one has really seen me in a hat so you wouldn't think that someone in a hat was me. yeah. thats my story and i'm sticking to it. so jermiah and i went up to the 5th floor. we went into one of the study rooms cause i really need to study for my psych testing test on monday. but he had nothing to study so first he tried looking for a book to read. but nothing to read. so he headed down to the 2nd floor and went on the computers. i didn't like sitting in the study room by myself, and i realized i should take notes on what i read, and since there are no tables in the study rooms, i went outside. so i planted myself at the table right by the room as i was in so that if jermiah came back upstairs he could easily find me. so i read and took notes. man i took a lot of notes. in the hour i was up there i took like 3 pages of notes. that was a lot of info. then jermiah came back. first he sat there bored with his head down. i felt bad so i packed up my stuff and we headed to the dome. not long after we got there jane pearl arrived. she has to work at noon. so we sat there talking about stuff. we talked about "taboo" stuff. heh. then rosemarie came out of class early. so it was jermiah, rosemarie and jane pearl talking about stuff. well more of the girls talked and jermiah just sat there. then him and darlene went to class and jane pearl went to work. rosemarie went and talked to charlene, so i studied more. then she came back and ali came around. then nik and shea came too. after hanging for a bit ali, nik and shea headed to the library to teach shea excel. then jermiah came back. then rosemarie left. hope your run was good. then jermiah and i headed to the acd computer lab. we chilled there for awhile. then ali logged on to aim, which i was already logged into..duh..and we decided to go to the gym at 2pm. so jermiah and i headed to the dome to meet up with nik and ali. so nik went back to the library to hang out while we were at the gym cause ali was driving him home and the 3 of us went to our cars and drove down to chavez parking. we parked and got our gear and headed for the gym. i got on my stride machine. i actually started reading a magazine and lost track of time and everything. i lifted the magazine just to see how long i was on it and how far i went and it was already over 30 minutes and over 2 miles. oops. well a good oops but oops nonetheless. hah. so then i started working on the machines. ali wasn't feeling good so she tried to work out but her headache was just too much. so she went and took a quick nap in the lobby on the couches while me and jermiah finished our workout. i did more machines than i normally do. i did the abs one, the back one, the arms one where you pull on the bar in front of you and i only did 1 squat one. i was getting too tired. so around 330pm we finished up and headed home. jermiah and i kinda raced home. he ended up following me all the way to park village then he headed home. i got home and ate. hadn't eaten yet today. so i ate around 430-ish. i ate left over steak and baked potato from last night that i would have had for dinner if i wasn't in cardiff. yummy. then i surfed the net a bit. then around 6pm jane pearl arrived. we needed to work on the apsa poster board. so we were dealing with the exacto, well actually she was dealing with the exacto when she managed to cut open the upper palm of her hand. good job jane pearl..hah. yeah she hurt. i offered her alcohol or hydrogen peroxide. hah. she didn't want either not knowing the hp doesn't sting. so i wiped down her hand with that. she had ran so much cold water on her hand that it made it numb. so then after we doctored her up we started working on the poster board. hah. how was i suppose to know my sis didn't take the other science board. my bad. so then we called ali to see if she was coming over and she was on her way. so then we decided how we wanted it. then jane pearl's ate joy called to figure out their plans. then right after jane's phone rings again. this time is her ate' rhia from florida. so i got on the phone to see if she would remember me. so i was just throwing out info about when i knew her and who i was related to. still no idea who i was. finally i revealed my name. "oh from church!" from church? she remembers me more from going to church and working at the church than the fact that i would sometimes hang out with her at school. and the drama btwn lyssa and karen about jerry. hahah ok. so yeah..and of all the things to remember about me, she remembers me being at church..hmmmmm interesting. but yeah that was funny. so then we started working on some of the parts of the posterboard. but that kept getting interrupted by my family and what not. the guy from dell came over to fix my screen on my laptop. yayee i finally have a screen again. then my parents kept calling me into their room to check things out. my parents decided to buy a new printer. so they had me look at them and decide if they should buy it. couldn't that have waited til jane pearl and ali left? hmm. so anyways. not long later they headed to where they needed to be. at least we got something started. ahh. so then my mom and i headed to target to buy this new printer. its a printer, copier, and scanner all in one. ok. so we did that. bought a book. i want to read it. been wanting to read a book for a long time but just never got around to choosing one. so hopefully i will read this one and finish it. so anyways. we went to kfc to get dinner even though its already like 9pm. we got home and my dad went to bed already. ok. so my mom and i ate then i came back upstairs. was chatting and what not. chris sent me the new apsa site so i can fill in the blanks and post it up. really like the site though. so i was tinkering with that when my mom came in so i can help her wrap my dad's and sis' vday gifts. right after we wrapped jac's she came home. totally smelled of jack daniels. yeah my sis was buzzing. she was cracking us up. and then i started chatting with teresa and my sis got on and started saying funny stuff to her. then took the keyboard into the bathroom and sent teresa messages from the bathroom. thanks teresa for going along with my drunk ass sister's banter then we made the vday cards for my dad. yeah the card from me and jac and the card from my mom were kinda harsh. the one from us talked about walking hand in hand as a kid and having this great dad..then we ended it with "oh wait..that wasn't us" and my mom's starts out all lovey and the qualities of a great husband..and hers ended like " or you could be if you knew the meaning of "husband"" yeah can you feel the love? well the truth hurts. so then i finished up the apsa website and posted it. had teresa check it out and we are up and running now. cool. then around 3am i went to bed.

saturday ~ Happy Fricken Valentine's day!! Happy Birthday Adam!!
well a lil before 1130am my dad comes into my room cause he can't seem to locate the new chord for the printer. it turns out that it doesn't have one. we were suppose to have bought one but we didn't know. then paul called to wish me a happy vday. after he called i called and left a message for adam wishing him a happy bday. so then i texted rosemarie "happy single's day" haha. then i got up and explained to my dad the type of printer cable he needs. then i went back to sleep. then around 130-ish my dad comes in again saying the printer doesn't work. it turns out that my parent's usb ports are dead. so i tell my dad i'll take a shower and we'll go look for a converter to make the usb a parallel. so i slowly get my ass in gear and get ready. finally i finish getting ready. i'm in my parents room and jokingly say "oh well i guess i'll just have to take the new printer and you guys can have mine" when my dad agrees with me. so the next thing i know i'm switching printers around and setting up printers. oh man. well at least i got a new printer. hah. so then in the middle of all that i got hungry and went downstairs to eat some left over chicken. then i came back upstairs and finished. i turned on my laptop and now it says there is no operating system. WTF!!!! so i'll have to tinker with that now too. well my mom just asked me if i want to go to valley view casino. why not? its not like i have a valentine or anything.

til our paths cross again

Angel remembered at 5:36:00 PM

Thursday, February 12, 2004

This is dedicated to those that consider near and dear....

I will be here by Gary Valenciano

TOMORROW MORNING IF YOU WAKE UP
AND THE SUN DOES NOT APPEAR
AH HA-A-AH I, I WILL BE HERE

IF IN THE DARK WE LOSE SIGHT OF LOVE
HOLD MY HAND AND HAVE NO FEAR
CAUSE AH HA-A-AH I, I WILL BE HERE

CHORUS 1:
I WILL BE HERE
WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE BEING QUIET
WHEN YOU NEED TO SPEAK YOUR MIND
I WILL LISTEN
AND I WILL BE HERE
WHEN THE LAUGHTER TURNS TO CRYING
THROUGH THE WINNING, LOSING AND TRYING
WE'LL BE TOGETHER
CAUSE I WILL BE HERE

TOMORROW MORNING IF YOU WAKE UP
AND THE FUTURE IS UNCLEAR
AH HA-A-AH I, I'LL BE HERE

JUST AS SURE AS SEASONS ARE MADE FOR CHANGE
OUR LIFETIMES ARE MADE FOR YEARS
AH HA-A-AH I, I WILL BE HERE

CHORUS 2:
I WILL BE HERE
YOU CAN CRY ON MY SHOULDER
WHEN THE MIRROR TELLS US WE'RE OLDER
I WILL HOLD YOU
AND I WILL BE HERE
TO WATCH YOU GROW IN BEAUTY
AND TELL YOU ALL THE THINGS YOU ARE TO ME
I WILL BE HERE

Bridge: I WILL BE TRUE TO THE PROMISE I HAVE MADE
TO YOU AND TO THE ONE WHO GAVE YOU TO ME…
OOH…OOH..OOH

AH HA-A-AH, I, I WILL BE HERE

Coda:AND JUST AS SURE AS SEASONS ARE MADE FOR CHANGE
OUR LIFETIMES ARE MADE FOR YEARS
'COZ AH HA-A-AH I, …HA-I WILL BE HERE
WE'LL BE TOGETHER, FOREVER
'COZ I WILL BE HERE…

I WILL BE HERE….

Angel remembered at 2:29:00 AM

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

today was ok. i spent the entire day in pain. while in the shower i noticed the huge ass reddish burgandy color bruise along my left hip area. HOLY SHIT!! although teresa and diana have made it clear that shit isn't holy. my hip area is still very tender and sensitive. it hurt to even attempt to put my hand in my jeans pocket today. not cool. i like having my hands in my pockets. .:snarl:. the rest of my body aches. my entire lower back hurts sooooooooo much. it hurt to sit cause pressure was being placed on it. and to even think of turning/twisting my back..not happening. my legs are in pain, worse that the first time i went to the gym. it hurts to bend my left leg. the last 30+ hours have been spent trying not to bend my leg while i walk. last night i chatted a bit with vinnie and told him about my injuries and such..and he said.."youre just always gettin injured huh? puttin yourself in the way of danger" he noticed that too. sheesh. he's not even around and he realizes that i'm always getting hurt. damn..so damn accident prone.

so despite the enormous amount of pain i have been in, my day was ok. got to school later than i wanted to. ended up parking in the dirt..AGAIN..for someone who is in pain and having trouble walking she sure as hell doesn't get up in time to get a decent parking spot. ok enough of my self reprimanding. so anyhoo i get to class with like 5 minutes to spare. yayee!!! so child development wasn't too bad. we learned about genes and chromosomes and the punnett square for heredity. so that was ok. after i collected my stuff i headed to the dome. again the guys were playing pasoy dos. they were playing with the incredible hulk cards. hah. so nik, paul and jermiah were amidst their game. ali was sitting there doing something i just can't remember and nathan was studying. so i attempted to sit down. yeah not fun. i was hungry so i headed to the c-store with ali. we ran into ronald. he ended up going to the c-store with us. yummy sammiches. so we got our drinks and chips and headed to the table. so we chilled there talking and eating and what not. out of the corner of ron's eye he noticed the guys were playing with incredible hulk cards. hah. fun stuff. so then ali went to palomar for her chem class. ron and i talked more about his surfing and what not. wow this guy is just a renaissance man. then he headed out for a cig break and rosemarie arrived from the gym...DOES YOUR MOTHER KNOW HOW YOU LEFT THE HOUSE???? she looked cute but DAYAM could that skirt be any shorter. oh man that bothered me. it bothered me the rest of the day just how short her skirt was. .:shiver:. it was a cute outfit. and it fit well with the mini jean skirt..but...ITS ROSEMARIE!!!..oh man i didn't realize how bothered i truly am about that skirt til writing this entry. hmph. so anyways. we talked a bit then we worked on her speech. once she doesn't concentrate on how poorly she's gonna do she does great. so it came time for the 1oclock classes. paul, jermiah and i walked rosemarie to the acd building. i didn't go to biopsych cause it was review and i haven't read the chapters yet so it would have been pointless for me to go. so the 3 of us head to the library. the plan was to take over a room and just study and what not. uh...do you think that happened? come on now..the answer is no. we walked in and paul pointed out punita at one of the computers. so i went to hug her and i ended up sitting at the pc next to her. paul sat in front of her and jermiah sat in front of me. hah. perfect. so we talked about stuff. stupid letter...love your rebuttle punita. while i was talking to her i saw megan and mbarak. hah they were teasing me for not being in class on monday. hah good stuff. so then punita left. arckay came into the library and sat with us in punita's seat. paul and i were logged onto aim. and paul was sending me links to all these funny and cool stuff. milk and cereal and beatbox. you guys should check them out if you haven't already. so yeah. then jermiah and arckay left. so it was just me and paul. we are sitting diagnol from eachother however we are still talking to eachother on aim. hah. we are losers. so then i message paul that ali should be back on campus about now when all of a sudden i get an im from ali herself. it turns out she tried calling my cell and it never rang. so she knew if there was a pc near me i would be online and sure enough i was. so she was in acd comp lab looking for me online. ha. so she came down and met me and paul at the starbucks. paul and i split an iced white chocolate mocha. mmm yummy. so then we headed back to the dome. so we sat there talking and they watched me play solitaire. yeah we are cool. then arien came around. yeah. then rosemarie came out of class. .:shiver:. so then i went with her to get some food. she got a croissant sammich. i told her to get a knife so she can put the condiments on the sammich. ok apparently she wasn't aware of that. so we get out of the c-store and i tell her to get napkins out of the dome and say hi to jane pearl. for some reason she heard me say jaymar instead of jane pearl. so she was looking for him after she said hi to jane pearl. what a goober. anyhoo. so we head to the table. so she starts eating. i tell her that she has mayo and mustard for the sammich. after she puts it on she proceeds to start cutting the sammich. wth? so i ask her and she said i told her to cut it. dude..no i didn't. i never said the word "cut". crazy girl. after that laughfest paul heads out to meet trish at the arts building. so then ali, rosemarie and i head out to the parking lot. ali drives rosemarie to her car at the chavez lot then drives me to the dirt. thanks ali for always driving my lazy ass to the dirt parking lot then i came home. chatted a bit online and what not. then the fam went to hunan for dinner. yeah i really wasnt hungry. hmm. oh well. next time nalang. so after dinner i came home and have been online ever since. so yeah, like the last 4 hours. posted some pictures on my web site. and added 2 pictures on rosemarie's site. i also added glenda to my blog list and sent her the html to add song to her blog. hope it works out for her. so yeah. just 4 hours of chatting, blogging, web designing, texting, and basically nothing else. great. i'm so gonna pass that quiz in the morning. haha yeah right. well i'm actually getting drowsy now. so i bid thee all a farewell.

til the next time we meet.

Angel remembered at 12:12:00 AM

Monday, February 09, 2004

its been a good and fun couple of days..some aches and pains and what not..but cool nonetheless

friday
yayee!! today was a blast. and to think i didn't want to get out of bed today. ahhah

so i got my lazy ass out of bed and got ready. headed for school, although i don't have school on fridays. but i like going and hanging..and its one of the rare times i can actually talk to rosemarie. and ali and i go to the gym on fridays too. so i get there and its ryan, ali, rosemarie, and joseph. i walk in and one of the first things i hear from rosemarie is "wow ate'. you look good" WTF? huh? my response was.."uh, ok" heh. she then starts to explain that i'm losing weight and that i look good. damn straight..hah. j/k. but at least i know the gym, and enormous amount of water i've been drinking is having some affect on me. thanks for the compliment rosemarie! so we are talking although we are at different tables, talking across the distance. and rosemarie is rambling off a million words a minutes and doesn't stop to breathe. joseph is just watching her and keeps telling her to breathe. "take a pause while you talk" hah. he's so funny. we continue our talk without the said pauses. it was funny watching joseph trying to keep up with her. hah. so then its time to head to the 10 o clock classes. so i walk ali and rosemarie to their classrooms, sorta. we are walking through the hall in craven. there is a woman who walks past us who is heavily endowed..if you get my drift. however she's has a rather small stature. so after she passes us rosemarie asks "ate' was that lady pregnant or what?" the funny thing was that i was wondering the same thing. haha. we don't know. and later rosemarie told me that when she asked the question she happened to look back at the lady and found her not that far behind us. oops. so we get out of craven and head to the classrooms. first its ali. we walked her to the 1st floor ACD near the elevator. poor baby is injured. her and her stairs had a one on one meeting last night. so her ankle hurts. :( so then now its rosemarie's turn. the girl would not stop griping about how much she hates that teacher and that class and how she doesn't learn anything. so then i tell her not to go...dude the girl was bitching forever...so finally i get tired of it and call clare. clare is going up the stairs heading to their class. i tell her that i'm kidnapping rosemarie cause she keeps griping. so clare tells us to have fun. thanks clare..hope the class wasn't too boring for you alone. so after i get off the phone with clare i turn rosemarie around and we head towards the library. originally i was gonna work on my biopsyc stuff but alas didn't. so we go into the library and go up to the 5th floor and take over one of the study rooms....ok can someone please explain to me as to how they are study rooms if there are no tables. how is one to study and take notes and what not if there is no elevated surface in which to write. the rooms have a minimum of 5 chairs in each of them however no tables. i just don't get it!! ok that's my spiel on that. back to my story. so i open the dry erase markers that i have in my bag so we can write and draw and do whatever on the whiteboards in the study room. so we first work a lil bit on fixing rosemarie's handwriting. hah. i told you we'd work on it sometime. then we started making lists about stuff and comparing. was interesting to see things laid out like that. then rosemarie started writing a list of the qualities she wants in her "dream guy". that too was an interesting list. had most of the basic stuff incorporated. but it was amusing to see her try to figure out what she wants in a guy. i just sat there in my chair with my legs propped up on another one just nodding my head as she wrote and talked. basically i was just her bobblehead. hah. so after about an hour hanging there we head out towards the dome. we meet up with ali, arckay and his friend cyrus. we talk about softball then the 3 girls head to the dome. joseph, jermiah, and andrew were playing pasoy dos and rhona was on the phone while mike just sat there watching everyone. nik was sitting with another friend on the other side of the dome. so we chat with them. andrew and rhona are explaining nathan to mike and what not. hehe. softball beatdown huh ali?!? hahahh. so then we see precious walk into the dome. so her and rosemarie go to get precious some food. ali, rosemarie and i had already decided to go to restaurant row and get some food. then mike joins us on our plan. so after awhile i go over and get rosemarie. so then she comes back and invites everyone..yeah..to join us. but no one else accepts our offer. rhona and andrew have to go home cause rhona has errands to do and stuff. so andrew, rhona, mike, ali, rosemarie and i head to the parking lot to leave. we walk to rhona and ali's cars that are right by eachother. ali drops off her stuff in her car then we head down to my car so we can go. i'm parked in the 2nd lot while ali was parked in the 1st. as we are going down the little ramp area we hear a horn honk and we turn around and its rhona and andrew. funny people. so we get to my car and head out to restaurant row. we park in front of rocking baja lobster. we decide to go there for lunch. rosemarie and mike have never been there and ali remembers me taking her there for her bday last year. so we go in and its pretty empty. thats fine with us. so we sit down, after awhile. "whats this" haha its a pepper grinder. hah. so after staring at the menu forever we finally decide what we want. we all end up getting the "u call it" buckets. just different choices. so then after we order we go to the salsa bar. we get different salsas and the honey butter. so we go back to the table and i show mike and rosemarie what they are suppose to do with the salsa and the tortillas. lesson time.. pay attention..haha. its all good. they agree that the butter was good. heheh. so as we were getting back to our table from the salsa bar our salads are served. oh man i'm being overwhelmed with salads. first i had a salad for lunch yesterday, then a salad with my dinner last night, and now today i have a salad with my dinner. oh man. it was good though. i totally cleared my plate. oh dang. so then our food arrived. yummy food. so we had some trouble situating ourselves around the table. we had plates and buckets everywhere. finally we got it so we can generally move about. its a good thing i generally eat with my left hand cause rosemarie and i would have been colliding constantly with my right hand and her left hand. hah. oh man. food was good. i liked my food and so did ali and rosemarie. i'm not sure about mike though. he had complained about it not being a lot of food. so i don't know what he thought of it. so we talked and what not. mike told us about his car accident in baguio city over the break in the philippines. yikes. at least everyone was ok. they unfortunately saw me get really pissed on the phone. joy called me for some advice/insight and we kinda ended up in a heated discussion. ali and rosemarie were chiming in and commenting on the phone to joy. yeah.. got a little livid..to the point that i was shaking in anger. yeah not cool. so after letting our food settle for a bit more we headed back to campus. thanks again mike for paying we stopped by rosemarie's car so she can drop off her stuff at the car. hah..hey rosemarie why don't you give the trunk a test spin..haha. just remember you'll be wearing a blindfold during your bday weekend...so then we walked ali to her car cause she was gonna go home. poor baby she was in pain. we ended up chatting at her car for awhile. hah. mike busted out his new digital (hah ali...die-G-tall..your mom..hah) camera and took random pictures of us talking. hah. so then ali went home and the 3 of us went up to the dome. we met up with paul. so we talked to him for awhile. then rosemarie called joy back and talked to her awhile and kinda relayed how upset i was. then i talked to joy some more again. after that rosemarie headed off to go pick up jennifer from school then paul and i headed to the gym and mike walked with us to kill time. so as we were walking down towards chavez plaza and as we were passing btwn craven and university hall i saw 3 of the magazine people downstairs. so i tell the guys i want to take the long way cause of them. so we walk along past university hall towards arts and i still see the magazine guys kinda following us, just downstairs. not on purpose just happens that way. so as we were walking towards arts we started talking about homestarrunner...check a little email!.. go strongbad. hah. fun stuff. so then we walked down arts and down the chavez stairs. at the bottom we said bye to mike. i hugged him then paul hugged him. hahah good stuff.
so then paul and i went to the gym. oh man. so i went on my stride machine. and i did my 1 mile in like 12 something minutes. yayee jess. so i decide to do the 2nd mile on the glider machine..NEVER AGAIN!!!! that machine sucks monkey balls. oh man. it killed my legs. if you dont know this machine..it is sets your minimum stride speed. not cool. so not cool. i barely travelled .33 of a mile. WTF?!!!?!?!? yeah i don't like that one. so i tried working on my arms a bit. the first 2 machines..damn i'm weaksauce. so i gave up on those. i did the crunch machine. oh man i felt that one. then i did the rowing machine. i'm getting better on that rowing one. then i did my legs. heh. after that we headed home. i ran to the bank and paul got gas then we met up at starbucks in mira mesa. we hung out for like an hour just talking and stuff. i liked it. it was nice to just go and hang out. and all we had was coffees and just sat there and chatted about random stuff. it was sooo nice. after that i went home and crashed out. i can't really remember what i did..oh shit now i do. i went to hell..aka work. eww.

saturday
yeah so i had to get up early cause i had to take inang on fricken errands. these errands consisted of the bank, costco, ico and target. so i pick her up. i get in the house and she's washing dishes. she had no idea i was even there. sheesh. so at first i just stand there waiting and she does nothing. so i sit down and start eating skyflakes. i hear her murmur my name so i answer. she doesn't hear me. so then she finishes the dishes and turns around to drink her drink that is on the table. it wasn't til she was done drinking that even noticed that i was sitting there on the couch. geez woman. so she finally notices me and starts to get her stuff together so we can go. so i go and wait in the car. so she finally works her way to the car. we stop by the bank and i just chill in the car til she comes out. so then we go to costco. she goes in first and i find parking. before i go in i eat a delicious costco hotdog. yummy. so then after i'm done i go inside. i find her and i'm following her for some time and she doesn't even notice me. oh damn woman. so finally she sees me. so we finish her meadering through the store. its times like this that i'm glad i have my mp3 player. so we finish up with costco and she tells me she needs to get a phone card from ico's in mira mesa. so as we are approaching ico's inang starts asking me all these questions about matt's gf kathryn. hah. so i answer what i can and inang is telling me these stories about them. so when inang is in ico i text matt about the interrogation. hah. so after a few texting back and forth inang comes back. so then i take her to target. i drop her off then go park. while i'm walking to target i call matt and tell him what inang was saying. what a dork. so then i go in and find inang. oh man i hate errands/shopping with this woman. she can never get things in a methodical pattern. so after all is said and done we finally leave. i drive her home. i'm too tired so i tell her i'll get my money from her later. i go home and tell jac and mom about inang. oh man. so then i took a quick nap. when i got up my mom was asking about jac's friends' bdays to add it to the bday list we have going. so i got up and took care of that on the computer and rushed to get dressed cause of softball practice at 4pm and it was already like 340pm. yeah i lag. so i head off to mira mesa and as i drive by i see that our field is occupied. so i drive around to the other side and see chris and jane pearl at their car. so i park and head over to them. talk to them for awhile then we go to my car get my equipment and head towards the field. i see jermiah's car but no jermiah. then i see eddie and his roommate apraisa getting out of the car too. cool we got some usd people playing with us too. so we see an empty field on the other side. so we head over there. then paul calls and we tell him where we are headed to. i call jermiah and he says that the team on the field is almost done. so first i have him stay there but later just tell him to come to our field. then ali arrives then christa and rj. then arckay comes around too. first we are all just tossing balls around kinda practicing. me and jane pearl are teaching christa and ali how to catch and throw. so then we separate the 10 players into teams and do hitting rotations and fielding rotations. oh man. i was pitching for my team. jane pearl almost takes my leg. then eddie fricken almost took off my head. the ball came so close to my head that i heard it whiz by. scary. then when jane pearl pitched to me it went towards her and she squatted and it bounced on the ground then rolled through her hair. oops. hah. while i was fielding though i pulled a muscle in the back of my leg. kinda like my hamstring. ay masakit na naman. so then we moved to a more lit field that also had base bags. then those same teams actually played a game. first and foremost..my team got their asses kicked 21-1. yeah not cool at all. then one time ali tried to catch a ball with her hand that didn't have a glove on it. uh pain!! then jane pearl was running to first base and her and apraisa collide hard core. kinda like me and trish the week before. poor jane pearl. take one for the team hah. so after finally giving up cause the score was just unreachable we tried to find out where to eat. christa and jane pearl were gonna eat with the girls for a girls night, rj had to get stuff for christa's vday gift, eddie and apraisa had errands to take care of..so they didn't join us. as we were trying to figure out what to do romeo and jonas arrived. asian time huh?!? it was decided that we would go to denny's in mira mesa. as we were walking to the parking lot we ran into chris. he was taking a break from his studying. he didn't want to go eat with us so he hung around with rj. romeo and jonas wanted to throw their football around some more so they stayed at the park. so ali, jermiah, paul, arckay and i went to dennys. oh man. my leg was killing me. but it was fun there. arckay took out his digital camera and we were taking pictures. hah. good stuff. so then after we were done eating and what not paul headed out to southside. the 4 of us headed to styx in poway. christa had told us to call her if we did anything in case she can join us. which she didn't. but i did talk to rj and him and chris met us at styx. it was fun. the 6 of us played cut-throat. it was ali and arckay, chris and rj, and me and jermiah. ok me and jermiah suck. we lost every game. not cool at all. but fun. chris had us cracking up constantly. he was trying to distract us so we'd miss. hah. and for some random reason, i was standing to the left of him when he suddenly swung and hit me in the shoulder. WTF?? haha. no rhyme or reason to it..he just felt like hitting me. hah. its all good. so then after playing for about 2 hours we all went home. fun stuff. as i slept i got a phone call at 130am from cousin. she called to tell me that eileen presto is pregnant again. cool. then jac called me at 230am to tell me that she had just beat victor rodriguez at a game of pool at the party she was at..oh ok. that was a random person to mention.

sunday
AY MASAKIT!! oh man i hurt so bad. my leg is killing. so i set my alarm for like 945am so i can get up and go to princess' graduation from maric college. but i was in so much pain. and at first it seemed i was the only one gonna go. then my mom came into my room and started asking questions about the ceremony. the next thing i knew i was getting up and getting ready for the ceremony that starts in an hour. its a good thing i don't take a long time to get ready. so my parents and i head out around 1105am and go to the sheraton four points across the street from maric. the ceremony starts at 1130am. we got there and parking sucked. so my dad dropped us off and my mom and i headed inside. we were able to see princess in line getting ready for her procession. she told us that the fam was in the back row. we walked in an found shawn then the fam. it was grandpa mike, grandma shoning, kuya ken, joey, ms ellie, sheena, loli, hansel, andrea, alina, rachel and rommel with us. so there was a good number of us there. so the ceremony started. princess sang the national anthem. go nining!! it was a good rendition. then the ceremony happened. there was a family off to the side of us that when their grad was mentioned they got super loud. and one time they screamed so loud that it startled a lil baby that was sitting on the other side of the room. poor baby. i didn't remember the grad's first name but i remembered the "corpuz" part. this will make sense later. so after the ceremony, which only lasted an hour, we took pictures with princess outside. then everyone, except shawn and ken cause they had to prepare for the bbq and rachel and rommel cause rommel had to go somewhere, headed to vip buffet for lunch. oh man that place was crowded. a bunch of the grads all went there for dinner. hah. its cool though. so then we hung out there stuffing our faces for awhile. while we were eating princess noticed my watch. she said "dude, am i the only one who doesn't have a watch like that?" hah cause andrea had a similar style one on too. so i asked her if she really wants one. she said yeah. i told her to give me 30 seconds. of course everyone is confused by now. so i reach down and grab my purse and pull out the other black one that i had in my purse. and give it to her. she gets all excited and puts it on. hah. happy grad nining. hah. so then after we were all full we headed out. so we came home and i crashed out. took a nap for awhille then i got up and got ready. then i headed out to ski beach for princess' bbq. while driving rosemarie called me up and asked me if we got president's day off. nope sorry. so i was telling her that i was headed to princess' grad celebration. and she said that her cousin graduated today too. i asked her her name..rhea corpuz. hah it was the loud ass group from the ceremony. hah. its a small world. so after driving around for a long ass time trying to find this damn ski beach i meet up with jac and cousin/corey and we drive to where they are. rachel and andrea and alina were there. shawn's bro sherwin and princess' friend jay was there too. and bunch of other people worked their way down through out the night. everyone was tripping out on corey's size compared to cousins. hah. good stuff. it was kinda cool chillin with kuya ken again. its been awhile. haha good stories. oh man the look into the future of jac when she passes..damn alky.. hah rachel fell to the floor laughing. hah. yeah everyone was getting a bit drunk and what not. rachel was funny. she was so gone that she was rolling in the dirt. hah. rachel had brought a bag of hershey's hugs with her. so after being tipsy for some time she busted them out. so she offered them to me, princess and jay. jay opened his and rachel had trouble with hers. so he offered her his. and she response was " Dude, you already WRAPPED it open" WTF?!? what was that rachel? ahh. you are so funny drunk. hah. after awhile rachel was getting sleepy so she was all in jay's arms. princess started taking pictures of them. hah. good stuff. before i left i told princess what had happened to me a couple weeks ago and the prayers and stuff. GOD is good. GOD kills. i'm gonna assume that the latter part dealt with my dreams. she was drunk at the time. but yeah. i came home around 1130pm. then jac woke me up around 130am and told me the cops rolled up to them at the beach. hmm good stuff???

monday
well today started off really bleh. i was still in pain and didn't want to get up. my mom came into my room asking me if i was gonna go to school. so i got up. damn it. so i got ready and prepped my gym bag and headed out. i got to campus but didn't find any good parking. so i ended up parking in the dirt again. i really need to start getting up on time. i so did not want to go to psych testing so i didn't. i went to the dome instead. the guys were playing pasoy dos again. ali and jess were sitting in the corner. so i took a table all to myself. when i walked up i saw a guy studying at the table..it turned out to be homer..dude i'm sorry for screwing up your name when you went to leave. i was so out of it...so i tried working on my biopsych since my test is on thursday. yeah not likely. after talking to jess and ali for awhile rj, rosemarie and borasy came around. so we were all talking. ali and ryan decided not to go to psych cause they had the price is right playing in the dome cause asi went there last week. so ali wanted to see it. hah. i talked to rosemarie for a lil bit. man i was just so bleh. i kept staring off into nothing and thinking nothing. rosemarie went to give me a hug and ironically she didn't hurt me like normal. she randomly petted me but thats about it. hahah.."how am i suppose to top you for your birthday?" hah. you'll figure it out rosemarie. hah. so then she headed home and joseph came around not too long later. we decided to go back to in & out. hah. this time rj sat in front. oh man joseph. gonna pukpuk your head. he was driving me nuts. he was causing havoc from the backseat. made the drive so much longer. damn. so yeah we got there and our parking spot was open. and sure enough so was our table. hah isn't that sad we already have an "our parking spot" and "our table".hah. so we ate our good food and headed back. i dropped off joseph at his car so he can go home. then we went to ali's car to get her gym stuff then dropped off rj at the dome and ali and i headed to the gym. oh man definitely good stuff. so me and ali get dressed and we talked about checking out a basketball earlier. but when we arrived the schedule said there was a boxing class in 15 minutes that would be using the court. so we decided to go outside. so when ali went to check out the ball we found out that the boxing class got cancelled. so we got the court. and as we were checking out the ball arckay and syrus were there too. they were gonna take the boxing class. so they checked out a basketball too and we all went into the court. so we threw around for awhile. then we decided to play "horse" hah. yeah we are ghetto. so it was us 4. then 2 of syrus' friends, alvin and juan, came in then later jermiah came in too. so after the first game of horse we played again but this time bringing in the other 3. oh man. hard shots. dayam you jermiah for getting that backwards shot. hah. it was fun. near the end jermiah had to leave so randy took his place. then after that game we actually played a game. it was ali, syrus and juan vs me, randy and alvin. at first my team was losing. oh man we were not ready for that much exercise. then i was involved in yet another collision. juan's head collided with my hip bone. yeah i still hurt, how many hours later?!? but yeah it was fun. but in the end my team prevailed. hah. by the time we finished the game, ali and i had been playing for almost an hour and 45 minutes. dang. hah. so then we turned in the bball and headed for the gym. we went on the stride machines. yeah not happening. we ended up only doing 5 minutes. our legs hurt so much. so we worked on the other machines. i did crunch machine and the row machine. i tried the full-on squatting machine. yeah the exercise was ok. kinda hurt cause i was sore but i couldn't reach the damn lever to set the machine so i can rest inbtwn sets. i had to keep asking ali to help me. hah. thanks ali. i was in so much pain that i only did 1 of my leg machines and i only did 2 sets. not cool at all. so i went and tool a shower while ali gave it one last try at running. so then after we changed and stuff we headed down to springtown japanese restuarant. yummy. dude i was falling asleep behind the wheel. ali saw me swerving. i was so tired by the time we reached the restaurant. but after all the food we ate i was sooooo tired. so i came home and crashed. well tried to anyways. first my mom came in when she got home from work asking about jac. then as i tried to go back to sleep rosemarie started a text convo with me. which eventually led to her calling me...i hope things get better for you sweetie....so then finally i just got up and have been working on this entry and chatting with glenda, vinnie, chris, arckay, paul, punita, clare, teresa, and pam. wow thats a lot of people. ahh. and not to long ago marc ims me. how the hell could you not know that jenae had a crush on you. we all knew it and we all openly teased her about it. hah. whatever dude. hah...mental note. quinn style, see if jenn relente knows marjay..

well its been a fun couple of days. had its blah moments but overall was fun. definitely good times. i like having these good weekends. hope to keep them up.

til our paths cross again.

a quote rosemarie texted me ~ Oh if GOD left something out of you, it was only to fill it with himself ~

Angel remembered at 9:52:00 PM

Thursday, February 05, 2004

CUTE NAMAN!!

Jason and Pam

Angel remembered at 9:12:00 PM

have you ever found yourself watching a friend change, emotionally and mentally, drastically right before your eyes? And force you to be so afraid for their mental, physical and emotional wellbeing?

yeah today was a tiring day. I got up and got ready and went to school. as i was walking out of the parking lot i ran into trish and told her about my experience last night and how we got the approval for the birthday weekend. so we talked for like 10 minutes. was kinda weird..just cause we haven't really had a normal conversation in awhile. heh. so then after that chat i went to my psych testing class. oh man megan was way too hyper. it was way to early for her to be on a red bull high. and she ended up getting another one in the middle of class. oh man. fun stuff. i love sitting with megan and mbarak. they help keeping me entertained in that boring class. but boy do we get loud..oops. ahh.

after class i went to the dome. it was andrew and joseph just sitting there. we got our table jacked. how rude. hah. then jermiah, paul, ali, jessica, rhona, randy and arien joined us after awhile. i saw rhona walk into the dome and she came around the back of me and tried to do the guess who game. as soon as she covered my eyes i said "hi rhone" (yes i know i changed the last vowel) and she said" no its not me" haha good one rhona. hah. fricken joseph kept unzipping my purse and my book bag. wth?!? talked to rosemarie on the phone a bit. then around 1215pm paul, ali and headed to my car to get mine and ali's stuff for the gym. i ended up moving my car from the front parking lot to the chavez lot. so then the 3 of us went to the gym. oh man. i did the stride machine that i did the last time. i strided (lack of a better term) 2 miles in 24.30 minutes. YAYEE!!! it used to take me anywhere from 15-20 minutes to do a mile when i was in jr high and high school. and last time i did 1.25 miles in 15.20 minutes. so i'm pretty stoked. but i was sweating. oh man i had it coming down my face in buckets. dang. sorry for the graphic details but oh well. so i finished and went to ali who was on one of the leg machines. i told her my time and distance. i still am in shock about that and its already been over 12 hours since it happened. so then i went on this hamstring machine..and dude i was dripping onto the floor. WTF!!! like i told paul..i wasn't sweating i was raining. haha. so then randy came in not long after that then arckay as well. we saw jermiah get the new student tour of the gym when you sign up. hah. so then i ended with my squat machines. i did 160lb on one straighter one and on the incline/raise one i did 180lb. so yeah i'll be feeling it in the morning. i didn't do any arm excercises though. my arm is still really sore from the car hitting it last night. then rhona hit it while we were in the dome. ay masakit!!. so then i went and took a shower..dude i really needed it after my rain fall while ali ran for another 10 minutes. so i took my shower and got dressed then ali and headed out to meet up with the guys on the couches by the gym. so then we had randy drive us back to the dome after we got our stuff out of the car. so then ali, paul and i ate sandwhiches and chedder fries and nik, andrew, and nate told us jokes. oh man..some got a little nasty and some got really gross..huh ali? hah. so then at 2pm paul and i went to the computer lab to finish our stats hw. we did that then headed to starbucks after we dropped off our stuff in the class and turned in our hw. so we got back. i was sooooo tired by this point. and my arm was killing me. it was funny. only half and hour had passed since class started. and i pointed it out to paul. he was in such disbelief that he was looking at both the time on the front cover of our phones and then opening them and verifying it to the inside clock...which is basically the same clock as the outside display. hah. he could not believe how slow class went by. haha. good stuff. then during the break we talked to leezel and stuff. then the 2nd part of class went a bit faster for me anyways. poor paul..dude you need to make better charts. that was funny. organized chaos hahah. if you say so paul. and WTF!! why wouldn't your calculator work for us the few hundred times??? damn casios. hah. i love my TI-82. haha. so after class we went back to the dome. ali was there by herself. so then nik came around too. after talking and chillin a bit we left. i took nik down to starbucks in mira mesa to meet up with teresa and shea. yeah 3 starbucks in my little area. hah.

after dropping off nik i went to target to get some stuff. yeah. so then i came home and ate a little bit. then after checking email and seeing who was online i went to sleep. except for the text messages btwn me and rosemarie i was sleeping for like 5 hours. got up around 1220am and chatted with chris llanes about the site. i like the layout very much. its almost done. yayee!!! also chatted with rosemarie a bit as well. cropped the pictures that christa sent me from ladies night and posted them on the epson account. and now here i am blogging about my most interesting day. yeah right!! can you feel the sarcasm?

til our paths cross again.

Angel remembered at 2:02:00 AM

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

today.....yeah!!! thats about the best i can do to summarize it all into 1 word.

so to start off i got up later than i was suppose to. i got to school on time but had to park in the dirt. as i was getting out my car i saw ronald getting out of his car behind me. so we walked together talking and what not. so we walked up to the library cause thats where his class was. so we talked awhile then i invited him to chill with us at the dome inbtwn classes. ok, get this..me who hates stairs...so after talking to ronald i walked up the stairs from the 1st floor of the library/craven up to the 3rd. ran into trish, paul and roman. then roman and i walked up the stairs (1st floor university) to the 3rd floor university hall for my child development class. so that was 6 flights of stairs. although i was sweating a tad, i was actually ok with it. thats scary. "i miss my elelator" huh ali??? so i went to my CD class. it was ok. i got the notes from nimitz from the day i missed from waking up late. so i'm all caught up on notes for that class. so after class nimitz and i headed to the dome. it was jane pearl, adam, jermiah, rose, and ali. not long after we got there i saw ronald walking up. so i introduced him to everyone. then janerosa came to say goodbye. :'( but we did have fun with her today. fricken nimitz showed us the miracle of life. that was so hilarious. omg!! hah. then it was time to head to our 1 oclock classes. we said our farewells to janerosa and headed off to class. oh man. i was so bored in my biopsyc class. i was dozing off and we had only been taking notes for 15 minutes. so not cool. finally the class ended and i head back to the dome. as i was getting to the table diana, teresa and shea were leaving. i turned the corner and rj and paul were watching rumble in the bronx on rj's laptop. hah. we so ghetto. i went upstairs to the coffee kiosk and got a sandwhich up there, need some variety. talked to hennifer for awhile then came back down. not long after i got back ali got back from palomar college. so she got food and we ate our food as the guys watched the end of rumble then they put in mr. nice guy. arien and joseph came around too. then rosemarie came over. then trish stopped by too. so ali, joseph and i were gonna go to the gym and play some hoops. so joseph headed home to change and me and ali headed to the gym. while ali and were walking towards the gym from the parking lot my phone rang and it was rosemarie. ok here goes why i summarized today as "yeah"

rosemarie tells me that her car broke down as she was approaching the freeway. she sounds like shes just gonna break down and cry. and with good reason too. she said she was blocking traffic. so ali and i jump into my car and head towards the freeway and as we are coming down twin oaks we see all these cars getting out the freeway lane. and lo and behold there is rosemarie in her car with her hazard lights on. so i go and park and ali runs up to the car and i follow. when we get to the car rosemarie is on the phone with her uncle, who is a mechanic trying to pin point her location. so i get on the phone and talk to him and tell him where she's at but that we are gonna move her out of danger's way. so i get off the phone and have rosemarie put the car in neutral and she's gonna steer the car while ali and push the car down the street and into carmel so we can get to the 76 gas station. so we start pushing the car. it was kinda easy cause we were on an incline. but then while she was turning the car so that we can head onto carmel it was putting the car in the other lanes and i saw that cars were starting to come our way. so i ran from the front of the car to the back of the car to try to stop it and kinda make our presence known that our car isn't working the way it was suppose to. but rosemarie and ali didn't know what i was doing and suddenly see me run to the back of the car. yeah i slammed on the trunk of the car to tell rosemarie to step on the brakes. scared her i'm sure. so then ali ran to join me at the back of the car and we started pushing the car onto carmel. so we are doing ok til we tried to get the car into the parking lot of the gas station. apparently there is a slight grade to the driveway that made it difficult to push the car up the lip of the driveway. OH MAN!! ali and i were screaming and hollering in frustration trying to get this heavy piece of metal and machinery up this very minute incline. to no avail i might add. there were 2 guys putting air in their tires that heard our screams and hollers and offered their assistance, which we greatly accepted. so the 4 of us go the car into the gas station then ali and i finished pushing it into the parking stall area. so rosemarie gets out of the car and thanks the 2 guys for helping us as ali and i huff and puff out of exhaustion relying on the trunk of the car as support. oh geez. so then we hung out in the car while rosemarie talked to her uncle again. then the tow truck driver called and i ended up talking to him. oh man he was driving me crazy. i still don't see the relevance of whether or not i was pinay and getting the damn tow truck to san marcos. so i was on the phone giving him directions and he was asking me stupid questions and you can hear the irkness (i don't even think thats a word) in my voice.GRRR! so we start to do what the guy asks and we empty out the car so we can leave it there for them to pick up later. its like 530pm and cause of traffic he's not even willing to leave miramar til after 630pm. gee whiz. so we start gathering rosemarie's stuff and i go and leave the key to the car with the mechanic there for the tow truck. i go back to the car after talking to the worker, eric, about what is gonna happen with the car and whatnot. so we start to get rosemarie's stuff so i can take her home when her mom calls and says that shes nearby. ok so rosemarie and her mom are in a yelling match on the phone, both out of frustration, trying to get her mom from the campus to the gas station. it gets to the point that i get on the phone to help direct her mom. i hang up the phone and headed out to twin oaks to look for her mom, and i see her and wave her down and she comes to the gas station. she's trying to get a hold of rosemarie's uncle again as to why there was no tow truck or mechanic there yet. yadadad. so i go back and get the key from eric and auntie starts the car. after a bit ali starts smelling gas coming out of the exhaust. and not long later so do i. so we tell auntie. so she gets out and has rosemarie start the car then like clockwork the smell comes back. oh man that stunk. so not good. so after many phone calls from rosemarie to a number of people and auntie to a number of people it is decided that we will take the car to her uncle in miramar. auntie is gonna drive rosemarie's car down. auntie asks me and ali to follow them just in case it breaks down again there will be enough of us to push the car and what not. so auntie gets into the beemer, rosemarie gets into the mitsubishi, and as ali and i head to the accord i started hacking and spitting up. i guess i took in too much gas fumes cause i was getting sick. i kept stopping and spitting up as we crossed the street to my car. so ali offers to drive since i'm not exactly kosher at this point. so the 3 cars head down to miramar. ok, now i know where rosemarie gets her driving skills from. auntie kept veering left in her lane almost like she was gonna merge but wasn't. and she was driving pretty slow. she was barely at speed limit. i understand the car may breakdown any moment but come on!! so anyways we get to the garage in miramar. so auntie starts talking to uncle and rosemarie, ali and i are in the parking lot still trying to find jennifer. apparently jennifer had her own things to take care of and didn't join auntie on this fiasco but jennifer wasn't picking up her phone and jimmy was getting frustrated cause she couldn't find her. yeah a whole other fiasco in itself. but i digress. so we are in the garage talking, its me, ali, rosemarie and auntie talking while uncle helped another customer. OMG!! so auntie is telling us how jennifer didn't want to come down with auntie and that she had to get her nails done or whatever. auntie tells us that one of her nails is broken and proceeds to flip off rosemarie to show us her broken nail. it was so random and so sudden that we could do nothing but laugh hysterically. it was the funniest thing. and we were laughing for a while too. oh man. now i know where rosemarie gets her randomness from. [do you see the running theme throughout this fiasco, me finding the source of some of rosemarie's quirks]. i forgot if it was related to the nail thing or what but auntie turned around and hit rosemarie's arm just like rosemarie hits my arm. to quote paul "aha". now i know where the hitting comes from. but it was the funniest thing though. to watch the 2 of them go at it. it was just a laughfest. while we were there rosemarie asked her mom about me taking rosemarie for her bday weekend. her mom said sure. "and maybe if your car is fixed by your birthday you can drive them!" hahah. yeah man drive me in the beemer man. hahah. so after uncle said he'd take care of the car and gave us a lingo lesson in car terms auntie offered to take me and ali to dinner. so we decided to go to pho hoa cali in mira mesa cause auntie and rosemarie have never had pho. and since its cold as hell (although how can it be cold as hell when we always affiliate hell with heat..anyhoo) and raining we figured the soup would be good.

so then auntie and rosemarie got into the mitsubishi and ali and i got into the accord. this time they followed me instead of vice versa. oh man auntie drives slow. sheesh. anyhoo. so we got there and they didn't know what to eat so i ordered #16s for them (rare steak and well done flank) and i got my usual. and i ordered 6 egg rolls. so i went to the bathroom and when i got back the eggrolls were there. and they just looked at it. they didn't know what the lettuce was for and what not. so i ended up the teacher. so i told them what to do with the lettuce and the egg roll and what not. so then our pho came. again it was lesson time. unfortunately none of the 3 can use chopsticks so we had to get them forks. so i showed them what to do with the soup and what not. rosemarie didn't know what was tripe so when my soup came i gave her some of mine to show her and her mom explained what it was based on another dish. yeah. so rosemarie was able to put a name to something she's been eating forever and a day. hah. so we all just talked and what not as we ate. it was funny listening to auntie talk about rosemarie and jennifer. so auntie went to pay for our dinner and rosemarie went to the bathroom. while she was gone i talked to auntie about what we had planned for rosemarie's birthday weekend and it was funny. i mentioned rosemarie wanting to go laser tagging and auntie kinda got excited. she was telling us that thats what rosemarie keeps saying what she wants to go do. so auntie was like..go take her..ahha. i brought up that trish will be turning 21 and auntie chimed in that rosemarie is gonna be 19 (like i didn't already know that...thanks auntie) so then she brought up when the gang went clubbing and uncle told rosemarie no. auntie said "yeah she wanted to go disco disco and i told her to ask her dad. and he said no." and i guess as a rebuttle or something rosemarie kept telling her "i'm fricken 18, i'm fricken 18" ok...do you know how funny it sounds for rosemarie's mom to be saying that with an accent and everything. i just smiled trying to stifle my urge to laugh in her face. but yeah. oh man that was funny. but ultimately auntie said i can take her ALL WEEKEND YAYEE!!! and when rosemarie got back i told her that her mom said yes i can take her for her bday and then her mom told her "and you'll come home on sunday!" ha..proof..auntie said that jennifer can stay home all weekend. muhahah. then i asked rosemarie about joining ali and i at the gym tomorrow since we didn't go today. and auntie said that she needs to be home in time to get jennifer from school and i said that would be no problem. and then auntie went off on a tangent about how jennifer always wants expensive stuff and was just going off about it. oh man it was just funny. i know i said that but it was. so then we headed out and auntie and rosemarie headed to temecula and ali and headed to csusm cause we left ali's car on campus.

so yeah. that was the fiasco of our night. dayam who needs the gym when you got a beemer?!? haha right ali?!? i know i'm gonna hurt tomorrow cause of pushing the car and getting hit by the car too in the arm. not to mention how it was made worse by rosemarie kept hitting and squeezing my arm even after i told her it was sore from getting hit. i even took off my jacket and my arm was all red from it being injured. oh well. better my arm was hit than someone hitting the car in the middle of traffic. so that was my day. and ali pointed out during dinner that its only tuesday. aw man. it feels like it should be friday already. dammit. oh well.

til we meet again.

Angel remembered at 12:55:00 AM

Monday, February 02, 2004

one thing i realized last night is how much i miss my cousin cheryl. she came over last night after i was done blogging and we chilled awhile. it had been over a month since i had talked to her more than 5 minutes. i told her about my emotional breakdown and the prayer i wrote on my blog. this girl it the one person on this earth that knows me the most. and she was in awe over what i wrote. when i was done reading it to her she just lied there on the bed staring at me with her big eyes even bigger. and she had some good insight as to why i'm going through what it is i'm going through. she said that part of it might be the fact that my life is changing right now. here i have loved quan for so long and now his role in my life is different. and before she said that i had thought about him and how we've barely talked since my breakdown. and i'm actually fine with that. i thought about how i haven't had the desire to text him or whatever. there have been a few times that i saw him online but for one reason or another i didn't im him or anything. and it was just because. nothing more, nothing less. i left him some messages before i went to work earlier. but just to say hi. but yeah. then cousin brought up me talking about my "comfort circle". and she brought up the fact that soon i'll be graduating. and when she graduated it was hard for her to get used to not having her normal circle and having to deal with the real world almost alone. i read teresa's blog earlier which referred everyone to her friend sarah's blog. and in sarah's blog she talked about what impact does our friends have on us and vice versa. and not to long ago i posted about that same idea. how much do we matter and how much do they matter to us? i guess i'm not alone in this wonder. life is changing. its always changing but sometimes the changes are faster than we are accustomed to. and i guess this whirlwind i've found myself in can attest to that. but talking to cousin about what has happened to me lately felt good. i was able to talk to someone that has been in my shoes and can see whats going on. not that rosemarie, ali or trish weren't there for me. on the contrary they were there for me in the way i needed each of them to be there for me. in their own way and with their own ideas. but with cousin she knows more about me and what has happened in my life then the 3 of them. and cousin and i are so alike that its so easy to relate to eachother. whether it be mistakes or accomplishments we journey through our lives together side by side. and i love that. i love that feeling of knowing there is someone along side of me to catch me when i fall or to rally behind me when i try anything. i have best friends in my life. and i love them dearly. and each one holds a special place in my heart. and each of those best friends have taken a part in my life for different reasons and with different roles. and cousin has taken the role of my family. she not only is my blood. but she is also my sweat and tears. so with each day that passes and put forth my blood, sweat and tears, my cousin is there with me whether its physically or emotionally. and i hope i fulfill that same support and love in her. the bottom line is...i love my cousin dearly. and i'm am so glad that no matter what life has thrown our way since we were kids our friendship has sustained and strengthened. and now here we are as adults almost 30 and nothing has broken that bond btwn us.

i hope that all of you out there reading this have someone like that in your life. it doesn't necessarily need to be a blood relative, but just someone that no matter what comes your way is right there to hold your hand and deal with it. whether its good or bad or indifferent. the last few weeks i've been evaluating my life. mainly the relationships in my life. there are some people that i call friend that i'm sure they'll walk out of my life or i'll walk out of theirs. and it will be through no fault of either of us. sometimes thats just the way things work out. and there are other that i see the friendship strengthening. and there are other that only time will tell what will happen. but i know one thing for sure. each one of them has left part of them with me. and i hope i've done the same with them.

Angel remembered at 4:08:00 AM

Sunday, February 01, 2004

its been a long time since i've posted a normal entry. the last 3 were random stuff and the 2 prior were introductions to my sudden emergence of religion in my life. so i think its about time i wrote about my haps so i can look back and laugh, cry, and shake my head in disbelief.

sunday jan 25th
i can't remember much of the day hours but the evening hours were fun. teresa and trish set up a surprise gathering at chuck e cheese for clare's bday. there were a lot of us there too. so that was cool. got to hang with lauren and katie again. that was fun. so the plan was that teresa and annie would kidnap clare and bring her to CEC. ok, these are the same 3 girls that kidnapped rosemarie. and as soon as i heard who was involved i knew a blindfold was involved. the funny thing is, without knowing it, clare did to. in her blog, just before teresa and annie got there, she wrote that she was gonna hang with the "kidnapping crew". little did she know that she was about to be kidnapped herself. so teresa and annie got clare to CEC blindfolded and with a beanie. unfortunately clare removed the beanie before we got a chance to see her with it. but they brought her in and brought her to the gang in the showroom and we surprised her. lets see if i can remember who was there : me, ali, trish, lex, lauren, katie, jane pearl, christa, rj, paul, his friend jason, gerard, leonard, homer, nik, shea, mark, john, teresa, annie, jackie, romeo, chris, clare, and some other people that i never met. and whenever possible diana would peak her head in when she got the free moment. so yeah we took up a good chunk of the showroom. while everyone went and played games me and katie had purse detail. which was cool. we got so into the CEC videos and shows. we started analyzing them and what not. still gotta check out www.ninjamonkeys.com. hah. yayee me and katie!!! haha. it was cool though. then during the cake jane icing-ed clare who in turn got jane. fun stuff. the only drawback was nik. he kept pushing the "old" comment and stuff that i finally had my fill and started punching and slapping him. he was pretty close to me so i couldn't do as much damage as i had hoped. i was so livid that i was on the brink of hyperventilating. lauren came to the rescue with her "mints" hahah. gotta love sucking on mini penises. hahaha. thanks lauren. so then when everyone left it was ali, gerard, leonard, homer and i waiting for diana to get off work. we hung out for about an hour and half. but we had cool convos. just proved that it really is a small world after all. we all kinda knew people in common. especially gerard and ali. hah. but it was cool. talked to homer about diana and stuff. that was really cool. i loved listening to him talk about her. you can tell he's really captivated by her. and that is so cool. yayee dyna!! hehe. so then i hauled ass home then to work cause i lost track of time and it was already after 1130pm and i was still in mira mesa and had to be at work at midnight. oops.

monday jan 26th
hmm. did anything interesting happen. hmmm. well i had my fricken 4 hour break today. i chilled with ali and the gang through that time. was not particularly interested in talking to nik today. and was perfectly content with that. was still rather livid with him. i was so tired from CEC and work and had trouble getting up. i ended up falling asleep for awhile in the dome. my pillow was the venetian blinds and the window sill. and i was actually rather comfortable. was a nice nap. my 2 classes were ok. in psych testing we were split off into groups in the library and had to find references for certain scenarios. my group was cool. in my group is one of my stats TAs, Leezel. she seems cool. even being extremely tired i seemed to have a good grasp on our assignment. i found myself talking more than the rest. wow. amazing. heh. stats was stats. me and paul mainly worked on our homework during class. i swear the sucky part of retaking classes that you generally did well in the first time is complete boredom. auughh. we had our first executive meeting. so that was that. afterwards trish, paul, jane pearl, ali and i hung out in the parking lot just doing nothing. dancing, being retarded, whatever we felt like doing. then after about an hour or so jane pearl left and jessica came around. then we all played hacky sac. hah. so he were were in the dimly lit parking lot playing hacky sac as cars drove around us. haha. yeah we are cool.

tuesday jan 27th
happy birthday clare. although i did post her a happy birthday wish that night. so what did i do on tuesday. went to class i know that. oh yeah i worked on some research then came home. nothing big this day.

wednesday jan 28th
went to class. just had fun with the crew in the back row. we are so dorky. i still had my notes from this section from last semester so i was bored. megan was reading her history of psych chapters for her quiz later today. mbarak was bored for the same reason i was. and the rest were bored cause everything being covered was in the book. we had to group up and make up synopsis of during eras within psychology and write them on the board. we were all brain dead. we just made sentences and correlations out of the 4 main points from our era. hey it works. hung out in the dome in btwn classes. rj, joseph, ali and i ended up taking a roadtrip to carlsbad to go to in & out on palomar airport road. oh man joseph. as we were driving there the rkelly song "step in the name of love" was on and he started singing it and really getting into it. while we were in line to order our food he kept singing it and started dancing it. haha. go joseph. joseph became a milf watcher. there was a fieldtrip with a crapload of lil kids eating at the in & out with us. and of course some of their moms were there too. so joseph was scoping out the scenery. hah. "j j j" haha. so sorry joseph. i didn't mean to hit you as hard as i did. oops i cracked it on joseph's forehead. so then while we were driving back to school joseph was being an "utot" literally. ok first he would randomly tell me to go when we were at a stop light. then he put my car in neutral while at the stop light to see if i would notice..which i did mind you..then he started farting in the car. the first one was tolerable. but oh man the next one was lethal poor rj was sitting directly behind joseph. we had all the windows open and it still stunk. oh jeez. then when we got to campus joseph tried to leave me "gifts" in the car and in the trunk. oh man. so then after hanging out for awhile again ali and i went to the computer lab so i can finish my stats homework. paul met us there. so we finished then ali walked us to our class. we dropped off our stuff then headed to the starbucks downstairs. OMG COULD SHE BE ANY SLOWER the girl took like 10 minutes to make my chocolate brownie frapp. damn. so then we walked back to class and ali headed to errands and stuff. class was ok. boring and what not. but of course being there with paul was entertaining. during break paul, leezel and i chatted. fun stuff. after class paul and i met up with ali in the dome. while the 3 of us kicked in the dome nik came around. i talked to him. still perturbed but more controlled. so then around 530pm ali and i headed to the field house. i signed up for the gym then we went at it. oh man i was sore. they had a couple of the squatting machines that i liked from 24 hour fitness. so i did one at 100lbs then the one that i really like i did 140lbs. it felt good but oh man. i did some arm exercises with 60lbs. yikes. i kinda hurt when i got home but nothing too bad. so then i went to work and had to be going up and down on the ladders and what not. yeah i hurt so bad.

thursday jan 29th
CAN WE SAY PAIN!!! every inch of my body hurts. it hurt to walk, to sit, to reach, to do just about anything. ali and i went to get food and she had to reach for everything cause i hurt so bad. and even just sitting in the chair had its discomfort. but its all good. its a good thing that i'm working out again. unfortunately i didnt' make it to any classes today. i woke up at 930am and my class was at 10am. yeah not gonna happen. so i got to school at 1045am. hung out in the dome as usual. adam was being a goober and made a reference to me being "old" and immediately nik threw his arms up and said "i didn't say a thing". he wanted to make sure it was known it wasn't him. its all good. yeah. i really didn't want to go to biopsyc. so i didn't. instead i went to the library and worked on some research for articles for biopsyc. when i was leaving the library i ran into ronald manzano. we talked awhile about psyc and what not. seems like a cool guy. while i was talking to him i saw diana and paul coming down the stairs from founders plaza. and as soon as paul was within ear shot of me he hollars "it's me. jessica" from hot chick. they went to starbucks. after talking to ronald i ended up standing there talking to teresa about what christa started earlier. we waited for paul and diana to get back. when they got back from getting paul's guitar diana went to class, teresa went home, and paul and i went back to the dome. while we were going to the dome paul was serenading anyone and everyone. we got into the elevator and he was strumming and singing about going to the fourth floor. then while we were in craven walking there was a girl with a pink shirt and paul started singing about her "wearing pink wearing pink i smell good cause i don't stink" hahah go paul. found rosemarie there with everyone. her class was cancelled. so we got to hang with her for awhile. that was cool. paul played for us the muppet babies theme with voices and everything. it was soo cool. people in the dome stopped and turned to listen to paul. after everyone headed out trish, ali and i went to the mall for awhile. we ate at the food court. trish and ali were pointing out how i've been eating healthy, for the most part at school, and what not. i had gone to quiznos and got a sandwhich and broccoli cheese soup. except for the first day of school when i got a vanilla pepsi, i've been drinking the snapple energy drinks or sobe. and today i was drinking water at school. i drink some soda when i eat out and at home. but not as much as i normally would. so after we ate we walked around the mall to find trish's shoes. but they were bitches at the wet seal so we didn't get any. we went to express to see what they had. oh man they are expensive. a regular looking button down shirt was like 35 bucks. oh hell nah i ain't paying that. as we walked around and went into C28. it was a cool store. i mentioned it in an entry a couple of days ago. i wouldn't mind going back. i would like to get an ezekial zipper jacket. i like that grey hat i tried on. too bad my head is smaller than the small/medium. sucky. so then we went on our way home. i went to work and hurt so bad. i was at the point that my feet weren't even leaving the ground as i walked. i just scurried my feet along as i journeyed from point a to point b. yeah pain.

friday jan 30th
went to school. hung out with the friday crew a bit. still hurt. i walked rosemarie to her theatre arts class cause i was gonna go to the library. that post of her random comment about "new meat" happened during this walk. while everyone was in their classes i went to the library. i was suppose to work on my research but instead was blogging and chatting and what not. i was so into my own thing i didn't even notice jermiah sit down next to me and work on him paper. hah. jon imed me and i started talking to him. ali got out of class and i told her i was in the library chatting with jon so she came over. i scared her. i told her that i had told jon that she was with her boyfriend. hah. joke lang. i never said anything of the sort to jon. oh man ali practically keeled over when i said it. she seriously thought i had said that. i had told jon she was in class. she was practically hyperventilating. so then we told jon what i did and he laughed. then it became a battle of ali saying i was mean and me saying no and yeah. hah. so then i started choking on nothing and went outside. while outside i saw rhona walking. so i ran up to her and brought her back to the library with me. so then she was hungry and so was i. so jermiah, rhona and i headed to the dome to eat and left ali chatting with jon. so the 3 of us went to the dome and ate. then shea and randy came around later. then joseph came around too. shea went to japanese club, randy and jermiah went to their class and then andrew came out of his class early. so then rhona and andrew left too. so it was just me and joseph. so we had continued to play card games like we had been doing for some time. he's a [fob style] cheater. he kept trying to take my cards. first we were playing super speed and he would just throw cards on top to get rid of his cards. then while playing war he would take my wins and try to pan them off as his. nik came around during war. and he watched as joseph tried to steal my cards. we kept having to go to war though. so many times we would have like 3 or 4 in a row. then everyone came back at 1pm. we chilled for a little bit then we started to head out. it was ali, joseph, rosemarie, jermiah and myself. everyone went to their cars but me. i went to rosemarie's. i talked to her for awhile. then afterwards i had her drive me to my car. that when i realized i lost my keys. so i called ali cause i was suppose to meet her down at the field house to go work out. so she started to head back. i called paul cause i knew he was still in the dome and he said he found my keys on the floor. hmm. so ali went and got them then came down to me at my car. so i got into my car and met her at the gym. we worked out for awhile. i like the stride machine i was on. in 15 minutes i went 1.25 miles. yayee. and i really wasn't all that tired afterwards. i was sweating definitely but not all out of breath or whatever. i like that one. so then we worked out some other stuff. i did my squat machines again. this time both were at 140lbs. did this one machine that was killing my calves. oh man. we were on the mats on the phone cause we were doing crunches and i wanted to just sleep. i was lying on my back with my knees propped up and my arms were extended above my head and i wanted to sleep just like that. hah. so then we decided to leave cause we were falling asleep. as we were leaving rosemarie text me asking if i had gone into her blog and left and entry. so i called her and told her that that weird thing had been there from the moment she blogged that entry. i told you about it then too. goober. so as i drove home i talked to rosemarie. girl is changing. its a little scary. but at the same time, its everything we worked all semester to get her at and now she's there. its so weird to hear her talk now too. yeah but thats another story. so after my conversation with her i went to rubios cause i was hungry. yummy fish tacos. so i ate that. then punita came over for a bit. we watched some of the culture shock stuff then i gave her the dvd. so then after that i took a quick nap then got ready and picked up ali. we went to meet the gang at in & out. it was diana, homer, teresa, nik, erik, christa, rj, ali and me. then paul and rj came by later. some of their "good times" crew came to. first it was vinnie and chris. then later on near the end glenda, genny, and anton came around. i told glenda and genny how i'd met them long ago. and genny even said i looked familiar. so when i told them that cheryl was my cousin the lights went off for them. ahha. its cool. they were fun to chill with. we ended up leaving in & out at 1am and we got there at 10pm. ahha. its all good. but i got to meet the infamous vinnie..HI VINNIE!!..cool guy!!

saturday jan 31st
yeah pain. heh. so i got up around 1pm. helped my mom a bit clean downstairs before i had to get ready and head out for softball practice at 4pm. so i got to the park and arien calls. so i go and park next to her at the senior citizen's center. i call up jermiah and tell him where we are. so arien, her friend marie, jermiah and i get to the field. not long after romeo and jonas come around too. so we are all playing, except marie. then slowly others arrive. christa, rj, trish, lex, ali, vinnie, chris and teresa. oh man fun times. we had such a work out. me and ali are already on the dl (disabled list) and we haven't even started playing for real yet. ali tried to stop a grounder with her foot. it looked so painful. she got hit a couple of times on the foot and what not. then i was pitching to christa and she was doing really well. one of the hard hits she did came straight at me and hit me in the upper area of my leg below the knee. then later while i was the first baseman lex threw the ball from 3rd base and it bounced and clobbered me just a tad lower than christa's ball. then while i was hitting and running to 1st base, trish was the first baseman, we collided hard core. we both ended up on our asses out of breath and laughing so hard. oh man. good stuff. yeah. we played a little more then we headed out. arien, marie, romeo and jonas had left hours ago. so all of us, except teresa cause she had a date with clare..ehee, went to eat at fuddruckers. oh man we hurt. i couldn't move. the pain didn't hit me til i was in the car. the joint that connects my legs to my torso was in such pain. i had so much trouble walking and what not. but it was cool. we had fun over there. trish making her jacked up concoction and trying to get lex to drink it. then the gas contests : the burping contest btwn trish and ali, which i chimed in near the end, then there was the farting contesting, if you will, btwn trish, lex, vinnie and chris. the food was good. i ordered the 1 lb burger. it was as big as my face. when i would pick it up to eat it would cover my face. haha. it was some good food though. so then afterwards ali, chris, vinnie, trish and lex came over to the house. we watched ice age all cramped in my room. that was funny. ali and trish went upstairs to pick a movie to watch and we were gonna watch it downstairs. i came up to see who was online and what not. then vinnie follows up then chris then lex. they found themselves comfortable in my room and thats where we ended up watching the movie. hah. so then ali left and glenda and anton arrived. then not long later trish and lex left. so it was me, glenda, anton, chris and vinnie chillin and hangin out. we played a bunch poker games. i like their games they were fun. we played texas hold'em, cutting corners and red cross, trombone, and 3/5. yeah that was fun. we even busted out the poker chips. me and glenda kept on donating to eachother as we lost. hah. i'm glenda's chris ever so often anton would "donate" random chips to chris throughout the night. so when it was down to me and glenda hooking each other up i said i was glenda's chris. haha. fun stuff. then around 1am everyone left. it was fun hanging with them. i can see why they are called "good times". so after they left i talked to rosemarie for along while on the phone. that was odd. its just been so long since we have talked and stuff. it was nice. kept wimpering. she knows why. "you are my best friend first before his" damn rosemarie...pulling that dominatrix shit again huh?!? hah. its all good. that damn snorting noise!! nining that is so panget!!!

sunday feb 1st
well here i am finally down to the present. hurt like hell from yesterday. i hurt so much that i woke up in the same position that i went to bed. it hurt to move or roll over or anything. not cool. but so worth it. i had so much fun yesterday and it felt good to be going to the gym again. tried cleaning up a bit. been chatting with random people, including chris and glenda. hah. this entry has taken me so long to do. its been almost 4 hours since i started this entry. i knew i should have been writing all week. just had other things on my mind. but yeah. overall its been a really good week. had some stuff happen that i wouldn't have guess would, ex praying. and just having a good time with old friends and new. i like weeks like this. i hope to have more. thanks to everyone for keeping me laughing and smiling. means a lot.

Dear God,
Its been a good week. A week that I feel blessed to have experienced. For the most part, there hasn't been many obstacles that have come my way. And if there were, I managed to overcome them with ease. Thank you for bringing new friends into my life to share my joys and sorrows with, and in turn will share those same times with me. Thank you for giving Rosemarie the strength to search for what she wants in this world. And to be content with her decisions.
Amen

Angel remembered at 3:53:00 PM

another rosemarie random moment

rosemarie: my ugliness makes you beautiful...

explanation: rosemarie makes the most ugliest snorting noise just to make me laugh. so the ugliness of her sound which is her "ugliness" brings a smile from my laughter which makes me "beautiful"

hi five to the "oobers"

i love her abstract logic..hahahahahahahahahhahahahhahhaha 8)

Angel remembered at 2:07:00 AM

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